Yay, new blogkin! @ Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Finally got new blogskin up. So many people were changing their blogskins so i did too. Had some problems though. Like, in the change, i accidentaly whiped out all the stupid quotes..... dang, had some good ones. And the fact that it was nearly complete when i touched my super sensitive power cable and WHAM! Com shuts down. Had to do it all over again... really annoying..... well, at least i got it done. Perseverence man. I'm so gonna die. So much homework..... better go do it......
PS this is a song for sumone.....
Ever the same by rob thomas
We were drawn from the weeds
We were brave like soldiers
Falling down under the pale moonlight
You were holding to me
Like a someone broken
And I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you now
Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you and we'll both fall down
Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you forever in me
Ever the same
We would stand in the wind
We were free like water
Flowing down
Under the warmth of the sun
Now it's cold and we're scared
And we've both been shaken
Look at us
Man, this doesn't need to be the end
Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you so we both fall down
Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you
And you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same
You may need me there
To carry all your weight
But you're no burden I assure
You tide me over
With a warmth I'll not forget
But I can only give you love
Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you
And you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
8:18 PM
Eventful days..... @
Today's really been an eventful day. Woke up this morning thinking how sucky life was. Thought about how much homework i haf left to do. Sumhow it never registered in my mind. Felt kinda depressed. Started messaging Inez and Riel. Then found out Ariel's dog died. Suddenly, i realised how fragile life is. Here i am feeling all depressed at life when sum ppl would want it back. Felt kinda stupid after that. Started comforting riel. I never knew the dog. Never played wif it. Never even seen it. But the moment i read that it died, i felt so sad. As if my dog had died. As if someone had reached into your heart and ripped out one of the things that make it whole.
After the earlier drama, i kinda stayed home stoning, messaging ppl. I stayed home till about 4.30. Went to my grandaunt's hse. She's old but she's still so full of energy. Her laughter was infectious and i soon found myself not lethargic at all. Then my phone died on me. Halfway through me messaging. Really annoying. Feeling tired..... juz came back home from visiting my mum's good friend... borrowed a book from her.... anthony horowitz's ark angel... gonna go sleep now.... so many friends nagging at me to..... you guys go sleep too ok.....
1:41 AM
Feeling better @ Saturday, January 28, 2006
Sorry for the other post. Felt kinda pissed at my sister. But i can't hold it against her. She probably had a bad day so i might haf done sumthing to annoy her. Sigh. Chinese new year. Holidays. Homwork. They go hand in hand.
I really felt God telling me sumthing yesterday. He really opened my eyes. I've been feeling quite down recently becoz ive been laughed at in school. Even when i cry out to God i feel like he's silent. Now i realise its a process i must go through. Its a process we must all go through. I have to go through this to go to a new level in faith with God. So no matter what happens to me, I'll forever hold on to the rock of my salvation. I also want to take this opportunity to thank the people in my life that have helped me when i was down, chered me up, made me high. Thank you.
PS. im thinking of changing my blog skin. Vote on my tag board kk.
10:06 AM
GAHHHH!!!!!! PISSED AT MY OLDEST SIS!!!! @ Thursday, January 26, 2006
GAHHHHH!!!!!! *STAB STAB*
DIE DIE DIE!!!!!!
EVIL INHUMAN CREATURE OF DOOM!!!!!
DIE DIE DIE!!!!!
HORRIBLE SISTER!!!!!
DIE DIE DIE!!!!!
ALWAYS BOSSING PEOPLE AROUND!!!!!
DIE DIE DIE!!!!!
RAWR!!!!!!!!!!RAWR!!!!!!!RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!
6:05 PM
God IS raising up a generation! @ Tuesday, January 24, 2006
You know, after looking back on my life, the people in it, the events in it, and having a heart to heart talk wif benn, i realise now that God really is raising up a generation as his army. People that will follow him wholeheartedly. I'm not saying it'll be easy. In fact, it'll be hard. But God will never give us more than we can bear. Everything else, he will carry it for you. He will be with you all the way. You dont have to be perfect. You just need to give your best to god.
There are people i can see sumday being great in god's army. People like me (yes i am trying to keep my ego in check), benavon (she has been giving me sum very good advice), ezra (not always perfect but he trys), Jared (when it comes to worship, he really gives it his all) and many many more which i cant really bother to think of becoz i haf homework to do (bleah). No matter how tough things may be, God can and will make a way for you. Just trust. Fully.
6:56 PM
juz feel so empty..... @
Don't feel too good..... not in a joking mood..... feel so empty..... feel like chest is bursting..... wads wrong wif me..... need to tell sumone..... juz need to.....dunno hu..... school..... church.....life..... argh.....feel like burst.....
5:29 PM
Sigh...School...Sigh.... @ Monday, January 23, 2006
Sigh. School. Sigh. School. Sigh. School is really un-fun. My classmates aren't exactly the most morally upright people. They arent really the sort hu are 'gentleman.' I kinda find it hard to be God's example in school. But i noe that God will never give me more than i can bear. I have to set an example. Already im getting weird looks from people. I noe wad their thinking. But i cant say it out. Sigh. I guess being a christian means persecution. I have to pray for my class. Hope that God will drop the scales from their eyes. Sigh. Its gonna be hard.
Today when i was walking home, i was singing the song that goes 'im not ashamed of the gospel in my life'(i havent found out what song it is but the tune was stuck in my head) when i walked past this guy and i instinctively lowered my volume. But then i realised what exactly i was singing. So instead i sang it louder. The guy was looking at me as if i was some kind of weirdo but i didnt care anymore.
I hoped that might reveal things to you. God spoke through that to me. I hope he does to you too.
4:43 PM
Go Benedicts blog. NOW! @ Sunday, January 22, 2006
I finished helping benedict make his blog. Yes go view it now. Im not exactly done wif it yet. But ill get there. Someday. If im not too swamped wif homework. Yes, i have alot to do. Sigh. Better go do it.
Had a good chat wif benavon on msn today. Helped me alot. So thank you benavon!!! Ok, now to home work.
6:24 PM
Tagged...dots... @ Thursday, January 19, 2006
Well ive been tagged by sandra (humph) and, in true lazy manner, i am gonna rip off her.
Your Ideal Partner:
1. Male Or Female
2. 8 Requirements of ur ideal partner
3. Tag 8 other people and notify that they are tagged.
1. He/She
Females. Males are generally discouraged.
2. The characteristics.
* Must know God.
* Nice :P
* Relatively intelligent.
* Street smart
* Gives me good advice when I need it.
* Understanding.
* Be spontaneous.
* Enjoys being HIGH!!!!!
3. 8 people Tagged
1.Ariel
2.Benn
3.Grace
4.Joelle
5.Michel
6.Vera
7.Jared
8.Ezra
4:20 PM
MEGALOMANIACS!!!! @ Tuesday, January 17, 2006
megalomaniac: If you describe someone as a megalomaniac, you are criticizing them because they enjoy being powerful.
Guess what. I have two of them. One at school and one at home. The one at home is my oldest sister. Because my parents are in the USA, she automatically assumes the place of authority. I mean, normally shes annoying enough, but now she has so much authority, she bosses us around like nobodys business. I'm serious. Its UNBELIEVABLY ANNOYING!!!
The other one at school is my CLASS CHAIRMAN. SO ANNOYING!!! He wanted to put my name in the class conduct file for SMILING. ITS SMILING FOR GOODNESS SAKES!!! Humph. I'm pissed. Im gonna go play some games to vent my anger. bye bye.
4:08 PM
Sucky days..... @ Monday, January 16, 2006
Had a really bad day. Bad. Ok, it started like this. Today my chapel is before recess. But chapel ends early. So the entire class goes off for recess except for 7 ppl. We arent actually supposed to go early. And im one of the 7 ppl. The chairman of the class goes and gets the ppl. The vice chariman (who i dont like, who the entire class doesnt) goes and gets the teacher. So everyone gets back and the teacher scolds all of us. ALL of us. She doesnt let us go for recess. ALL of us. Not even the 7 ppl who didnt go. So i dont get to eat. AND i didnt eat breakfast. AND becoz her period is actually the last period, she holds us back an added 40 mins. So i was starving. I only got to eat when i came back home. Sigh. But no worries. After chatting wif Brian for a few minutes, he helped me lift my spirits. I feel well enough to tell a few lame jokes. So i will.
Where can you find alot of corn?
Round the CORNer.
What do you have when you cant digest corn propely?
CORNstipation.
Where on a map can you find alot of corn?
On the CORNtinents.
What do you call a man who paints corn?
A CORN artiste
What releases corn in its gaseous state?
A air-CORNditioner.
I know, they were CORNy jokes but funny. Ok, bui bui
4:23 PM
Sigh...broke....again..... @ Sunday, January 15, 2006
Sigh. I have found out a new way to immediatly stop being high. Look at my wallet. That makes me feel super sad. Really. I have like 50cts left. Sigh. Ok ok i don't want to be a depressent (its a medical condition. It is no laughing matter. If you or any one you know is depressed, please go to
www.helpmeimsuperdepressedhelpmepleasepleaseplease.com) Oh yay. my lameness has helped cheer me up. kind of. Sort of. Maybe. Yes. Hope Riel and Benn like their dogs. Toy dogs. Cute toy dogs. Yes. Dont squish them.
Dinner at macs was fun. And weird. Benn and Abby went to the toilet. Everyone else thought they were going home. So they started to go home. I'm not sure what happened after that but we were all back at macs. Really weird. What can I say? So are we. I kinda realised the whole Sec1 group was kind of loud. Brother Zhi cao kept telling us to quieten down. Then there was a bug on Sam's jacket and then she was super freaked out. Funny. Then Brother Zhi cao came and took the bug away. It was really very funny. Anyways, cant blog much more. I'll update stupid quotes. My sis chasing me off the com.
12:53 AM
Happy birthday Benn!!! @ Friday, January 13, 2006
Grow and stuff. yars.
Auditions were fun. Really. I dun really feel like blogging.... juz wanted to say happy birthday for benn. And show you a song i found. This is the lyrics. Its called the happy happy birthday song by arrogant worms.
Once a year we celebrate with stupid hats and plastic plates. The fact that you were able to make another trip around the sun. And the whole clan gathers round and gifts and laughter do abound. And we let out a joyful sound and sing that stupid song.
Happy Birthday. Now you're one year older. Happy Birthday. Your life still isn't over Happy Birthday. You did not accomplish much. But you didn't die this year I guess that's good enough
So let's drink to your fading health and hope you don't remind yourself. Your chances of finding fame and wealth decrease with every year. Does it feel like you're doing laps and eating food and taking naps. And hoping that some day perhaps your life will hold some cheer.
Happy Birthday. What have you done that matters? Happy Birthday You're starting to get fatter Happy Birthday It's downhill from now on Try not to remind yourself Your best years are all gone
If cryogenics were all free then you could live like Walt Disney And live for all eternity inside a block of ice But instead your time is set this is the only life you get And though it hasn't ended yet sometimes you wish it might
Happy Birthday You wish you had more money Happy Birthday Your life's so sad it's funny Happy Birthday How much more can you take But your friends are hungry So just cut the stupid cake
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
Dear (continuous names)
3:52 PM
Happy birthday Riel!!! @ Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Grow wiser and more mature arhhhh.
Anyway, on to other stuff.
The auditions for tech team are on thurs. WHOO!!!
NEWSFLASH: IM BROKE
Because ive spent all my money on pressies. So you better be happy.
Super short entry coz i got nothing to write juz to test the marquee. Yars. Byes
4:47 PM
BORING!!!!! @ Tuesday, January 10, 2006
UPDATE: GO TO SQUEAK TO SEE MUH NEW STUPID QUOTES SECTION!!!
Movie was SUPER BORING!!! Well i guess thats becoz i already watched it twice. BUT there were 2 other things that made it super boring. Well, the absense of 2 things. Firstly, the absense of Momo. Second, the absense of Ezra. But it was funny when brian was nearly sleeping at a certain point. Coz there was a sudden wolf growling. And not the normal low growl. The LOUD SCARY kind of growl. I saw him litterally JUMP from his seat. Really funny.
Before the movie, we had to go to find sandra. We(me and benn) didnt really know how she looked like. We had to guess and luckily we guessed rite. U noe, she actually thought we were a couple. I thought that was gross. And rite now I want to apologize to sandra coz i kinda gave a few "spoilers" during the movie. Yars. Sorry.
Reached home at about 11. Thought my mum would kill me. She was actually too busy packing to scold me. Lucky me.
Parents left at abt 2.30 today. Kinda sad to see them go. Even though i had gone longer without them, i still felt a little sad. 10 days without them. Kinda good and bad. Sigh. Leave me to lament.
6:31 PM
Tag board up @ Monday, January 09, 2006
Yes my tag-board is up and running. The old one had problems so i killed it and dumped it in the Singapore river. Go and you might see it. I cloned a new one. Yes i did. Hahaz. Anyways, today i was eating my lunch, looked at the chicken, remembered some stuff our bio teacher told us, and nearly puked. Really gross stuff. Yars, i decided to eat porridge instead. Waiting to go to plaza Sing. Look outside and hope the rain stops. Really hope. Well, byes.
3:54 PM
Weird dream @ Sunday, January 08, 2006
Last nite i had the certifiable weirdest dream in my entire life. Ok, it was like a movie trailer. Very narniaish. It was about some movie where a guy gets involved in a car accident and suddenly gets tranported to another world. As a penguin. No, really. Anyways, in my dream, the penguins were like the army of this nation. And the man-turned-penguin is mistaken to be a new recruit. So he goes along wif the training, living out the life in this new world, and evantually becomes the general. Really. Then, from the trailer, i gather that there's a huge war, against some sort of inhuman creatures. And then, like most movie trailers, they flash alot of shots very quickly. And i am sure somewhere i saw my own mental image of a were-cow. Seriously. And i also saw alot of church peeps in it too. I dunno why. The whole trailer was very narniaish. Yars. And i remember hearing the penguin guy scream out :"I don't want to be a penguin!!!!!" Yars.
When i woke up, i decided to jump out of bed. Not remembering my hurt knee. I jumped out and WHAM! The pain hit. I literally yelped out in pain. Yars. Trust me not to think before i act. Well, thats really all i wanted to blog so byes.
And dont worry Xue-Er and Johnervan, i haven't forgotten ur bdaes. Yars. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Ur one year older so act more mature.
6:11 PM
Jared..... grrrrrrrrr @ Saturday, January 07, 2006
Jared, when you tackled me to ground, i hurt my knee. Badly. I'm like limping. And it hurts everytime i move it. And its all your fault. Well, actually i shoved ice cubes down your back which made you chase after me but its still your fault. Why? Coz i say so. Accept it.
Hahaz. Today's service was fun. I signed up for WTTTF coz i need to go through it again to be SP. Anyways, i had fun in macs. Gabriel was asking for a death wish lars. Went around talking about different "couples." Oh yeah, and the werecow was on a rampage. She shoved ice cream( the 50cts cone one) onto Benedict's face. Quite funny. But i guess it wasnt really. Slap-stick funny not funny funny. Can't wait for monday. Movie!!! Narnia. At plaza Sing. Yay. BUT, i will be broke for the rest of the week. Very broke. *sigh* i guess you cant have your cake and eat it too. Until next time.
Update: go ignyte wensite now!!!! Camp pics!!!!
http://www.trinity.net/IGNYTE/photo.htm GO GO GO!!!
9:22 PM
Launch man launch @ Friday, January 06, 2006
So happy ppl are home from their camps. Was super bored last nite. The orientaion camp in my school was fun lars. Super tired when i got back. I was sleeping in some lecture they were giving us, and wasnt caught. So that was lucky. Then, after i told myself not to sleep anymore, i lean forward and see my form teacher sleeping. I'm like, see, even the teachers sleep, Why can't we. I guess i realise that the way secondary school is supposed to be sleep little in weekdays, sleep alot on weekends. So happy its saturday again. Can't wait to go to church. IGNYTE launch man, less than one day. Can't wait.
7:58 PM
better @ Wednesday, January 04, 2006
The second day of sec school was much much much better. The people started to open up, all the boring talks stopped, we finally had some fun and i got some sleep on the way to the NEWater plant. There was this game we played, quite fun lars coz i was high. We were supposed to go on a treasure hunt to find sumthing. Anyways, we could ask the sec 3 that followed us around for help, but we had to do a forfeit. Quite funny. My team didn't bother to find the clues, we juz did forfeit after forfeit. 2 students from my class had to each find a random sec4, hug him and say i love u. It was super funny and i was laughing till my sides hurt. We also had to go on pushup position and recite the national pledge.....on super rocky floor. My hands hurt after that. We also got a sec 1 in my class to go to the flag polesfacing all the classrooms and shout 'i am the sec 1 of the year!!! Notice me!!!' Quite funny. Our last forfeit was to go down on our knees in front of a teacher and go 'lao shi wan sui wan wan sui.' Hahaz. Quite fun. Look forward for the rest of the week.
6:43 PM
school sucked @ Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Today school sucked. Really. My classroom looks like a freaking prison. And only today they tell us that we're going home at 4.40 for the next few days. sigh, hate my new school. Luckily for me, i haf alot of old frenz from acs primary to talk to. So im not that alone. Sigh. Well, can't blog too long. Need to sleep early. Nearly fell asleep at asembbly. Got woken up by a teacher. Sigh, blog tomorrow.
8:50 PM
@ Monday, January 02, 2006
Yars, i was pissed at jared lars. Annoyance. Anyways, i don't want school to start. I look back on this december holidays and realise this was one of the best i've had. Made new frenz, cherished old ones. But school must come and school will come. All i can do is sigh and stare and remember the fun i've had. *sigh**stare**remember the fun i had*
5:23 PM
ENEMY @
From this point on, Jared Koh is declared a enemy of the penguin state. WAR!!!!!! Yars. U are to block him immediatly, until he has no one to talk to MUAHAHAHA!!! DIE DIE DIE!!!!
5:20 PM
2006 contd. @ Sunday, January 01, 2006
Ok, im back. Yars. Anyways, i like me new cell. They haf nice people. Fun people. Hahaz. Yes, people in my cell, i am saying this to butter you peeps up. Hahaz. Don't really haf much to say. So, yars. Byes.
10:42 PM
2006 @
First off, i wanna wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! Yars. As I look to the new year, i remember stuff about 2005. Stuff that happened to me that changed me. Yars. Anyways, WATCHNITE was nice. Good and bad. Kinda put a dampener on things when we couldn't jump. but it was fun. I really felt God touch me. But now i gtg. I'll blog later.
3:13 PM