I feel so loser, cause I'm not out somewhere
heh, oh the boredom

its been a good week, and a good term
this being the one term where I passed my chinese
God has been good to me =D
teacher's day was fun, if not for the fact that we were let off so late
but its alright, cause that meant more "recess" time that was spent playing bridge

Had a good talk with BZH yesterday
I think too much of what he said was too true
alot of times, I never think myself capable enough
and although I've said these words before, its only now that God's opened my eyes, to see what they really mean
that I don't have to be perfect, because God doesn't need me to be
because He works in my weakness
and turns it into strength
and most of all, its not by might, not by power, but by the spirit of God that works are done.
And I know the exams are coming, which is bad news
but I know God has a plan
and I know it won't be my strength
cause that isn't much use
but its His

I love my God
above all else
and He will give me
strength nothing can compare to

Because the wildfire's spreading
and because "Those who are with us are greater than those who are with them" 2nd Kings 6:16

hah, now ruth can't say I didn't post on sunday

yesterday was good
heh
always seem to say that
well, its because any day that I spend time in the house of my God is good

yes, I did go shopping with joelle
oh dont look so shocked!
standing around while she tries on 5 different outfits
no comment

then, service
commissioning
I had hoped I wouldn't be first
then brother victor went :" first up, mr...."
in my mind: oh crud
"gideon goh!"
"cruddddddd. smiles now"

heh
yes, I'm being random
then, midway through worship
"Gid, stay silent for a second"
"yea God?"
"Do you hear that?
Its the sound of a broken people
Its the sound of a strengthened army
Its the sound of desperation
Its the sound of revival"
My God is the best poet ever

pretty much summed up my day
and I eagerly await the sept holidays
however short they may be
DRONG! I want my holiday!



Dear _______,
I don't think I care much what the world thinks anymore. And I know I'm such a wuss, texting you like that. But... its because I can't myself to tell you face to face. I hate giving you up. I really do. I've been wrestling with God for the past few months, because I needed to know if there was another way, but there isn't. I've talked to Him, whined at Him, demanded of Him, but there just isn't. And I cried at the altars, because I knew I had to. The others, I don't know how they did it. How they gave up what meant so much to them. I don't know how they did it, but I have to. And I'm sorry. For the umpteenth time, I'm sorry.

God surprises me
"heh, gid? do you feel like writing me a song?"
"huh?"
"dont worry, I'll do it with you, how's that?"
"hmmm... okay!"

not gotten far, but here's the bridge and chorus
bridge
you've opened my eyes and now I see
how much you've been moving in me

chorus
sing to the King of kings
sing to the Lord of lords
sing hallelujah to
the God of all (repeat)

yay
I boast in my God, for he gives me strength :) and not to mention joy
I think there were times this week where the devil was laughing away because he stole a victory
but God's having the last laugh, cause he took it back
for my sake
heh
I love my God

ooo yes, before I forget
the peanut butter poem!

Peanut Butter
Peanut butter is so cool
and I could eat a pool
Peanut butter is so hot
and I could eat a lot
Peanut butter is so yummy
I want it to fill my tummy
Peanut butter is the best
you should put it to the test

yay for peanut butter!
bigger yay for her!
biggest yay for my God!
yay!

ho hum, boredom
highlight of today:
I saw a complete parhelic circle!
whats a parhelic circle, you may ask
a parhelic circle is where you see a rainbow-coloured circle around the sun
so. amazing.
just times like that that make me in awe of the beauty God made
amazing
simply amazing

mmm, past few days have been good

saturday was awesome!
Stare what stare was really funny
somehow, zach just being zach is funny
good choice for emcee
plus, so many people got saved!
whoooo!
best part of the day
heh
really good
macs was fun too
and I sat on the spinny-thingy again
joy!
plus, went to botanics
emo spot!
heh

sunday
long, but strangely fun
heh, tuition was so random
my tuition teacher is the most psychotic and funny(at the same time!) person you will ever meet

monday
highlight of the day
ACS(I) RUGBY C DIV BEAT SA 10-7
which, to us, is a horrible win
I mean, for the past two years, the worst score I've ever heard was a win by 12-7
yeeeesh
BUT!
I actually cheered!
which is shocking
and also why my throat hurts now
heh
worth it

we better get a holiday

ahhh, friday
you know, I didn't realise that its already the 8th week
last time I checked what week it was, it was week 4
but another thing I realised
is that all my projects have been handed up
ahhh, the slack-ness
today's been a good day
and I feel joy :)

just because I feel like it:
6 people that mean the world to me
1. Benn. hmm, obvious choice no? My best friend, and the only person in my life who has ever made an entire powerpoint presentation to cheer me up when I felt down. Thanks benn!
2. Ariel. although the only time we seem to talk is in the presence imminent doom, she's still been a great friend to me.
3. Benedict! probably the closest guy friend I have. I know I treat him like crap sometimes, but he's stuck to me. and for that, I am grateful beyond words.
4. Brian. heh, the guy who can almost match my lame-ness level, annoy me, yet has spoken words into my life that mean alot. Thank you kor!
5. Valerina. My mei, who I never talk to enough! she goes through much, but its my honour to be there for her. keep safe, mei!
6. (saving best for last), Michele! who has never failed to find some way to get me to smile. I thank you for all you've ever done for me, thank you michy.

and the others that follow
xue er! who's going away at the end of the year :(. I think when she goes, the two things I'll remember her by are black espadrilles and peanut butter. oh yes, the peanut butter and shoe poem
joelle! (my gay partner, heh, still remember, although its so wrong), and, no, I don't think you look primary 6
anders! don't talk to you enough anymore man, we shall work on that.
ruth! my mei who has given me so so much sugar. thank you!
joshua au. who can be an idiot at times, but is someone I will still call friend
BZH! haven't seen him in a while, always seems to be somewhere else. come back to your buzz group!
jean ho! who has provided so much encouragement and words of wisdom, and who also inspired everybody to write on me at last years church camp. ah, memories. thanks jean!
david! oii, never talk much to you anymore. the song where'd you go pops into mind. its sad we hardly talk anymore.
grace tang! said this before, will say it again, we need to talk!
inez! heh, catching up needs to be done
vera! haven't talked to you in a long long long time, and I've forgotten all the stupid nicknames you gave me. reminiscing
derek! haven't talked much since played out. we shall go and goof off soon yea?
gabriel fang! half idiot, half friend. heh, thanks for all you've done
julian! mr. hopeless-at-stuff. hope you enjoy your utorrent
javian! SB! apologies for not going to the many soccer thingies.
jared koh! (this time, it was saving the worst for last):P I take great pleasure in annoying him, and he does annoying me. but thanks for the kind words, and the encouragements

... and so many more.
I don't know why I did this
but.. these people all mean something to me
and although there were times where I wanted to take all their troubles as my own
but God's taught me that I can't carry the weight of the world.
cause when you try to, you have a tendency of getting crushed by him.
So I'm letting him carry my weight
because its not mine to carry anymore
and I like it that way
thank you God
for all you've done
but more importantly
for who you are

long post
shall retreat back to my slacking
I'm strangely happy
but you don't hear me complaining :)

I don't usually blog on wednesday
but I'll make an exception
simply because God is good :D
after 4 years of not passing chinese (not including PSLE, that was too easy)
I have finally passed!
Hallelujah!
yay!
Thank you God! :)

plus, today I have found out how to solve a Rubik's Cube
oh joy!
heh, short post.
random filler.

mmm, rush hour 3 turned out to be quite a waste
too short I say, too short

yesterday was great yo
served for RGB
which was fun!
my slides were awwwwesome
heh
plus, me and xue er have innovated a shoe poem
goes a little something like this

"black espadrilles are really hot
and modani shoes make you look short"
that's what my friend said
its due to her head
that's about the size of a dot

hah
so funny
no, not really

limerick!

best. toy. penguin. ever.
pingu!

no idea what I'm talking about
later

Labels: poem

again, apologies to anyone who messaged me last night, my phone died

mmm, last night was fun, spent at ander's house
plus, troy!
best. epic. movie. ever.
and, for the record, Paris (and, therefore, Orlando Bloom), is a pansy, a wuss, call it what you want, means the same thing.
He crawls back to his brother! during a duel to the death!
I mean come on, its about honour
you want to fight to the death, you honour it!
plus, he CRAWLED back
wuss
then, he shoots achilles
oh come on, if shooting arrows is the only thing you know, you must REALLY suck
and orlando bloom
seriously
wussssss
in POTC, he hides behind elizabeth taylor the ENTIRE time!
she goes out and fights, while he sits around drinking tea
wuss

heh, rambling
oh so fun!

yea, it IS 10 in the morning, not at night
oh dont look SO surprised I'm awake

spent the good part of the morning on the phone with benn
ahh, good talk

heh, I'm glad to see what God is doing
and, yes, I am strangely glad that everyone is falling sick
more specifically, because everyone in IGNYTE is falling sick
doesn't take a genius to tell that its something the devil's trying to do
which is fantastic!
because it means we're all growing!
yay for sickness!
heh

need to talk to the following people more
alot more
1. GOD! can't ever have enough of talking to God
2. fang! gabriel fang, that is
3. chengtng. preferably cool chengtng, not hot chengtng
4. val! the mg one
5. valna! heh, the other one
6. josh au! now you can't say I'm not doing anything as your SP
7. david. haven't talked to him in a long, long time
8. inez! heh, long long long long time
9. ariel! not so long, but long enough
10. YOUtu me manques
heh, and so many many more

feel out of touch, weird innit?
want to listen to good music!
and the hillsong album Saviour King officially rocks

need to play Golden Sun: the Lost Age!
wahhh, I am such a geek

eagerly awaiting monday to come so TECK SING can tell me how I did for the chinese paper
hope I pass!

kawaiiiii
okay, cannot believe I said that
YOU SAW NOTHING
NOTHING, YOU HEAR ME?
NOTHING!

watching rush hour 3 later
and watching bleach 136 now!
off I go!

heh, long long long post.
its been a long time since I did a long post
feel the rambling-ness

I see the stars in your eyes
and your eyes in the stars

apologize for not blogging earlier
mmmm, yesterday was good
heh, good service
can't wait for the "stare what stare" event
hahaha
nothing much
nothing to blog
boooo

heh
I'm happy
tolberone!
chocolate-ty goodness
white choco
heh

for the first time in 4 years, I'm confident in passing my chinese test
*silence while people take in the shock*
Because! I studied!
*longer silence while people take in the larger shock*
amazing no?
although, in typical slacker style, I only studied DURING school, before chinese period
hahahaha
6 hours worth of writing, re-writing, re-re-writing, oh joy
but I think I'll pass
which means!
I have a bargaining chip with my parents
joy!
hahahaha
can't wait for next week
so little school days
muahahahaha
anyone up for the simpsons movie next friday?