This might be a long post so prepare yourself
Haven't posted in a while. Mostly cause every time I get home I either have work to do or my sisters are on it or both. Which leads me to my topic of sisters. Incredibly annoying yes they are.
But I thank God cause that has trained up my patience with others. I usually agree and go with them. Occassionally arguing when I'm either too tired or I don't see the point. But its been happening more and more often. I guess that rebellious spirit in me is showing. Even they have been starting to realise it.
I love my bathroom. Because every time I step in there I can have some time alone. And yes God has spoken to me in the toilet before. Its a reality. As weird as it may sound, its a reality.
God spoke to me and asked me "son, what are you doing to your life." I couldn't reply. I still can't. Maybe theres a side of me that actually enjoys screwing my life in the ground and watching me hurt everyone around me.
Met an old friend today. On the way home. He hardly recognised me. To quote him :"I didn't recognise you not because you look different, your facial features are still the same, but because you've lost that familiar happy twinkle in your eye." I'm not sure how true that is but it is a comment some people have made. I guess, after I while, I realise theres nothing really god to smile and laugh about.
Did 2.4km. Super sucky. I was completely unprepared cause I didn't even know I would be running on that day. I effectively said "ah heck it" and slacked off the first 1.4 km. On my last km I sprinted and got my worse time EVER on 2.4. A uber sucky 14 minutes. Blehs. I haven't lost the strength to run, just the will.
Breaking my promise right now. I know I was supposed to sleep by 1 but I can't sleep. Insomniac remember. AND and and and I slept for 4 hours from 8 to 12 just, well, just because. So if it doesn't count and I haven't broken the promise, good. If I have, then sorry.
Still deciding if I should go for MG dance night. Someone help me decide. I've just been looking forward to sat all week and now its here I dunno what to do with it.
I'm either very blind or very dumb. Can't seem to find the [x] on vera's blog. me blur blur.
Its so weird now. Cause I was in that position. Wondering why you did what you did. Now I'm in your place. And someone else is in mine. And I understand. For the first time I truly understand. And so, I can finally, truly, let go and let live.
As much as I try, I can't deny the truth.
Even if it hurts.
Oikos. Reaching out. Calling out. No reply. Blocking on msn. Why?
Do I honestly seem that happy to everyone?