poeticness at 3am in ths morning @ Sunday, April 02, 2006
this cycle or hurt, this cycle of pain my mind says its different but my heart knows its the same I'm left helpless, cracking from stress pressure from all sides, not given a rest problem to problem, every single day i live my life, what can i say?
Ah yes, my poetic side has come to me. And, of all times, at 3 am in the morning. 'There's so much to blog' i tell myself. But either A) i can't remember B) too much to say or C) I don't even want to talk about the subject
People keep asking me the same question. I either reply them 'now is not the time' or 'I don't know, I honestly don't'. Both are absolutely true. I really have no idea. Maybe someday I can sit down and clear the air but I don't have time for it. Or is that just an excuse for a truth I know deep down inside.
Funny, I say I don't have enough time when i spend almost every minute stoning. For example, tonight, or this morning, I could have slept at 10. But no, i decide to stone for a while, pace for a while, sigh for a while and read a book. So what exactly am I doing at 3am in the morning when I'm supposed to leave for my grandma's house at 11 tomorrow? No idea.
I keep ranting about needing sleep. Funny thing is, its actually all in my reach. But somewhere inside me doesnt want sleep. For what reason, again, i have no idea. I don't understand myself. As i go about with my life, my mind thinks of a million different things to blog about but the moment i sit infront of my computer the energy to blog drains out of my body along with all my inspiration. It actually takes effort to continue on this window.
Watching me watching you. Looking at me looking at you. Both understanding. Bursting with things to say to each other. But, as life plays its cruel tricks on us, no words are spoken. A silent knowledge. An unwritten rule.
Quote: when life gives you lemons, throw them back and get some decent fruit.
Everything you've said, running through my head...
The lost and confused penguiKnIGHT, signing off...
Gideon
penguiknight/krantol
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."
intro
There's so much about life that I don't know about yet, and there's so much that God
teaches me as I walk with Him everyday. This is where I record what I learn, my
reflections on His revelations. My hope is that through the words you read, you hear
His voice, not mine. And if it puts a smile on your face, that's an added bonus