Gideon
penguiknight/krantol
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."
oh God help me... @ Sunday, July 30, 2006
im sorry
arghh
gahh
I don't like who I've become
I know its impossible to help everyone
so why do I continue in this sucidal insanity?
because I like seeing people happy
I enjoy the smile on their faces
knowing I've helped them
is something I wont shake off
that is why.
Oh God I desperately need to call someone.
3 people actually.
arghh
gahh
I don't like who I've become
I know its impossible to help everyone
so why do I continue in this sucidal insanity?
because I like seeing people happy
I enjoy the smile on their faces
knowing I've helped them
is something I wont shake off
that is why.
Oh God I desperately need to call someone.
3 people actually.
2:40 AM
Plans @
Today's (yesterday since its past 12) sermon was about planning
so I shall plan out my post
I'll do the quiz that I was stabbed by
then I'll probably blog out something depressingly intelligent
here goes
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? oh God my eyebags are big. Really should have listened to ariel and slept at 12.45 instead of 3.45... now wheres my laptop... halo here I come...
2. When is the next time you will have sex? haven't had it yet. Don't really bother thinking about that.
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"? four, more, sore, bore, folklore, dinosaur, balvinda kaur. The last one is the name of my Lang Arts A teacher.
4. Favorite planet? pluto. Always intrigued me.
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile? Inez. Which reminds me. I've yet to read the letter.
6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone? my phones permanantly on silent.
7. What kinda shirt you have on? This grey t shirt. Ready to sleep actually
8.What do you "label" yourself? penguin
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing? on my bed therfore barefoot
10. Bright or Dark Room?Dark room. Easier to see my laptop screen.
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? Xue Er. Nice person with to mush on her mind.
12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on? both.
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? talking on the phone.
14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile? I'm off to bed now i think. Nights gid...- from ariel.
15. Where is your letter box? downstairs
16. What's a word that you say a lot? hahaz or poke
17.Who told you he/she loved you last? my wonderful mother
18. Last furry thing you touched? no idea
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? im not on medication and im not on street drugs.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? digital camara. All hail.
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 13(fine 12+). Freedom. But with responsibility
22. Your worst enemy? Either Jeng Yang, Joshua or muthusamy
23. What is your current desktop picture? Xbox 360
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? goodnight mom
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly? I would actually like to fly.
26. Do you like someone? not right now. Not that I know of. I don't understand myself.
27. The last song you listened to? She's on my mind by Teddy Geiger.
28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullets? Of course. it would be my mom.
29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be? see enemies
30. What is the closest object to your left foot? my school bag which is at the foot of the bed.
I stab... no one... can't bother.
When my sleep deprived insanity stumbles onward
and my lies trip me up
and I wait with bated breathe
to see what brilliant idea I come up with to free myself from whatever I've done.
and how I'm sorry for not being there
and how hard it is to keep as many friendships as you can
and to ignore the stares and the questions
to hold firm in what you believe in
and its no fun being alone
neither is it fun when you can read too well
and know what people are thinking through their speech
and sometimes...
you know too much...
so I shall plan out my post
I'll do the quiz that I was stabbed by
then I'll probably blog out something depressingly intelligent
here goes
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought? oh God my eyebags are big. Really should have listened to ariel and slept at 12.45 instead of 3.45... now wheres my laptop... halo here I come...
2. When is the next time you will have sex? haven't had it yet. Don't really bother thinking about that.
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"? four, more, sore, bore, folklore, dinosaur, balvinda kaur. The last one is the name of my Lang Arts A teacher.
4. Favorite planet? pluto. Always intrigued me.
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile? Inez. Which reminds me. I've yet to read the letter.
6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone? my phones permanantly on silent.
7. What kinda shirt you have on? This grey t shirt. Ready to sleep actually
8.What do you "label" yourself? penguin
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing? on my bed therfore barefoot
10. Bright or Dark Room?Dark room. Easier to see my laptop screen.
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you? Xue Er. Nice person with to mush on her mind.
12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on? both.
13. What were you doing at midnight last night? talking on the phone.
14. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile? I'm off to bed now i think. Nights gid...- from ariel.
15. Where is your letter box? downstairs
16. What's a word that you say a lot? hahaz or poke
17.Who told you he/she loved you last? my wonderful mother
18. Last furry thing you touched? no idea
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days? im not on medication and im not on street drugs.
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? digital camara. All hail.
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 13(fine 12+). Freedom. But with responsibility
22. Your worst enemy? Either Jeng Yang, Joshua or muthusamy
23. What is your current desktop picture? Xbox 360
24. What was the last thing you said to someone? goodnight mom
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly? I would actually like to fly.
26. Do you like someone? not right now. Not that I know of. I don't understand myself.
27. The last song you listened to? She's on my mind by Teddy Geiger.
28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullets? Of course. it would be my mom.
29. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be? see enemies
30. What is the closest object to your left foot? my school bag which is at the foot of the bed.
I stab... no one... can't bother.
When my sleep deprived insanity stumbles onward
and my lies trip me up
and I wait with bated breathe
to see what brilliant idea I come up with to free myself from whatever I've done.
and how I'm sorry for not being there
and how hard it is to keep as many friendships as you can
and to ignore the stares and the questions
to hold firm in what you believe in
and its no fun being alone
neither is it fun when you can read too well
and know what people are thinking through their speech
and sometimes...
you know too much...
2:26 AM
Long day. Bad ending @ Friday, July 28, 2006
And I come to the end of this long day with my oldest sister screaming in my ear and dee not responding.
Health check
I'm officially 158
sigh
Classroom
turns out we were all wrong
Joshua Goh (aka megalomaniac aka mastermind pirate)
he was the one who's been influencing Jeng Yang
so wadda ya say
outcast both of them?
(message directed to Joshua)
at the rate you're going
getting beaten up is in the not too distant future
I personally cannot wait for the day
Math Class
Kirby is truly pro at getting into trouble
especially with the wrong people
Odessy of the mind
half of 1.10 was supposed to go to 1.7
but the 1.7 teacher remained in class
and we were supposed to go to 1.10
so for today our classes merged
and we pissed the teacher off man...
NPCC
wonderful ncdcc cadets shouted from the classrooms "muthu you suck"
apparently word's been going around about muthusamy
who is our sadistic CI
well, we were pumped for that
he looked extremly pissed
and I think I nearly laughed when I heard that
and I don't care what he might do to me for saying this
but I shall speak the truth
muthusamy is a complete retard who drills us like crazy, pushes us around like children, and brings us above and beyond out limits.
there
Home
no idea how I did it
but I feel asleep at 6pm
and woke up an hour ago
I sleep too late
and now my sister screams in my ear
as I retrieve the video files for something
bahh
but there is good news
thanks to ming yang
I now have the official blogs of some of the singapore idol finalists
here goes
Paul
Jasmine
Nurul
Joakim
Rahimah
Meryl
Gayle
There
enjoy
Health check
I'm officially 158
sigh
Classroom
turns out we were all wrong
Joshua Goh (aka megalomaniac aka mastermind pirate)
he was the one who's been influencing Jeng Yang
so wadda ya say
outcast both of them?
(message directed to Joshua)
at the rate you're going
getting beaten up is in the not too distant future
I personally cannot wait for the day
Math Class
Kirby is truly pro at getting into trouble
especially with the wrong people
Odessy of the mind
half of 1.10 was supposed to go to 1.7
but the 1.7 teacher remained in class
and we were supposed to go to 1.10
so for today our classes merged
and we pissed the teacher off man...
NPCC
wonderful ncdcc cadets shouted from the classrooms "muthu you suck"
apparently word's been going around about muthusamy
who is our sadistic CI
well, we were pumped for that
he looked extremly pissed
and I think I nearly laughed when I heard that
and I don't care what he might do to me for saying this
but I shall speak the truth
muthusamy is a complete retard who drills us like crazy, pushes us around like children, and brings us above and beyond out limits.
there
Home
no idea how I did it
but I feel asleep at 6pm
and woke up an hour ago
I sleep too late
and now my sister screams in my ear
as I retrieve the video files for something
bahh
but there is good news
thanks to ming yang
I now have the official blogs of some of the singapore idol finalists
here goes
Paul
Jasmine
Nurul
Joakim
Rahimah
Meryl
Gayle
There
enjoy
10:55 PM
From School @ Thursday, July 27, 2006
As the title suggests, I'm blogging from school
haven't been blogging much since I've started playing lineage.
And it rocks because it has this inbuilt msn messenger.
Yesterday
School boring
another imprompto ting xie
don't think I'll pass
After school
Supposed to stay back
Didn't really care
Went to KAP
but no one came other than David and Vera
And Vera left quickly
Which was sad.
David was positively obessesed with Halo on my tablet
so he wanted me to go to his house and load it into his home computer
On the way to his home(which he brilliantly decided to walk to)
He came up with the idea to go to someone's house
at that point in time, Xue er's house was the closest
so we decided to crash her house
entered the estate
but none of us knew which was her block
so we called her
and found out that her mother was home
So we couldn't/didn't go.
We changed our target to benn
and crossed the road
but again, we didn't know which was her house
we tried to call but she was having tuition
so we ended up going to david's house
which was the original idea
hahaz
long stories after that
You're looking for something you can't find.
haven't been blogging much since I've started playing lineage.
And it rocks because it has this inbuilt msn messenger.
Yesterday
School boring
another imprompto ting xie
don't think I'll pass
After school
Supposed to stay back
Didn't really care
Went to KAP
but no one came other than David and Vera
And Vera left quickly
Which was sad.
David was positively obessesed with Halo on my tablet
so he wanted me to go to his house and load it into his home computer
On the way to his home(which he brilliantly decided to walk to)
He came up with the idea to go to someone's house
at that point in time, Xue er's house was the closest
so we decided to crash her house
entered the estate
but none of us knew which was her block
so we called her
and found out that her mother was home
So we couldn't/didn't go.
We changed our target to benn
and crossed the road
but again, we didn't know which was her house
we tried to call but she was having tuition
so we ended up going to david's house
which was the original idea
hahaz
long stories after that
You're looking for something you can't find.
9:24 AM
random posts @ Sunday, July 23, 2006
I know I haven't exactly been the most regular blogger
or the most frequent blogger for that matter
or the blogger with the longest posts
Life has just been throwing me curvballs lately
and I'm confused when I'm not supposed to be
I mysteriously survived friday
the orientation run was slightly less than insane
with the wusses who took the shortcut instead of the 4.8km route
slacking off
1 out of 10000 chance that I wont fail my chinese oral
NPCC was insane
didn't really bother coming online
Saturday
Woke up late again
Didn't exactly realise that I had L cell
so I rushed down
and spent $4 on sweets
which mysteriously vanished
due to the sweet tooths (teeth?) of the other people in my L cell
came down just when service started
wonderful service
wonderful worship
wonderful message
no compromise
fuel
ze jun and his magnetic ball thinguses
melody demanding sweets
couldn't go macs
went to anders's house
bahh
shan't comment on that
Sometimes anders can be a real pain in the ass....
benn was way too tired for a long phone convo
she needs her rest
the gundam game was fun
death and destruction!!!
roxxor
On the car home
my younger sister insisted that my mum buys her a new pair of sandals
because "my old pair doesn't match my clothes"
which is really bimbotic
and shes only 7 years old
what has MGS done to her...
and ariel insists that its not bimbotic, its cute
which I don't exactly agree with
blogged out my day
now I leave into the night
just like old times aye?
or the most frequent blogger for that matter
or the blogger with the longest posts
Life has just been throwing me curvballs lately
and I'm confused when I'm not supposed to be
I mysteriously survived friday
the orientation run was slightly less than insane
with the wusses who took the shortcut instead of the 4.8km route
slacking off
1 out of 10000 chance that I wont fail my chinese oral
NPCC was insane
didn't really bother coming online
Saturday
Woke up late again
Didn't exactly realise that I had L cell
so I rushed down
and spent $4 on sweets
which mysteriously vanished
due to the sweet tooths (teeth?) of the other people in my L cell
came down just when service started
wonderful service
wonderful worship
wonderful message
no compromise
fuel
ze jun and his magnetic ball thinguses
melody demanding sweets
couldn't go macs
went to anders's house
bahh
shan't comment on that
Sometimes anders can be a real pain in the ass....
benn was way too tired for a long phone convo
she needs her rest
the gundam game was fun
death and destruction!!!
roxxor
On the car home
my younger sister insisted that my mum buys her a new pair of sandals
because "my old pair doesn't match my clothes"
which is really bimbotic
and shes only 7 years old
what has MGS done to her...
and ariel insists that its not bimbotic, its cute
which I don't exactly agree with
blogged out my day
now I leave into the night
just like old times aye?
8:29 PM
Super packed day @ Thursday, July 20, 2006
7.20am -- Orientation Run for MacRitchie
9.00am -- Normal Classes
11.40am -- Racial Harmony concert
1.30pm -- Chinese Oral (of which I'm the 2nd to talk)
4.45pm -- NPCC(sea)
6.30pm -- Home. FINALLY
my day's gonna be packed
and I still can't find my charger
annoying......
Life goes on without fail
9.00am -- Normal Classes
11.40am -- Racial Harmony concert
1.30pm -- Chinese Oral (of which I'm the 2nd to talk)
4.45pm -- NPCC(sea)
6.30pm -- Home. FINALLY
my day's gonna be packed
and I still can't find my charger
annoying......
Life goes on without fail
9:55 PM
accidental isolation @ Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Its 11pm
I just spent the last 4 hours blasting away on CS
almost my entire house is asleep
my mum and dad are out because my dad's uncle died
I'm not supposed to be using the com
I have homework to do
I desperately need to hear a voice, any voice, your voice
CS is fun...
but when you get off it, you feel depressed again
gahhh
I need my phone... which my mum took back
Lonely in the crowd...
I just spent the last 4 hours blasting away on CS
almost my entire house is asleep
my mum and dad are out because my dad's uncle died
I'm not supposed to be using the com
I have homework to do
I desperately need to hear a voice, any voice, your voice
CS is fun...
but when you get off it, you feel depressed again
gahhh
I need my phone... which my mum took back
Lonely in the crowd...
11:10 PM
quizzical @ Monday, July 17, 2006
yet another quiz
Bold the ones that apply to you, then stab 5 people to do it.
I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.(although Im not always honest)
I curse sometimes
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I am TOTALLY smart.
I have broken someone's bones.
I am paranoid sometimes.(sometimes?)
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now
I LOVE sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I could not survive without Caller I.D
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I am always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex. (toilets and FISHES!)
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop
Enjoy window shopping
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I am a pretty good dancer.
I am completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I have rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future
I have changed a diaper before.
I have called the cops on a friend before.
I am not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I am obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most ALL of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I have ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonalds restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I cannot live without black eyeliner.
I do not know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes
I cannot whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I cannot stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring
I have a tattoo.
I cannot stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I am an artist.(slacking is an art)
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie
why am I missing you?
why do my eyes light up at an sms?
why do I roll your name on my tongue?
And most of all, why am I writing all this here?
Bold the ones that apply to you, then stab 5 people to do it.
I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.(although Im not always honest)
I curse sometimes
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I am TOTALLY smart.
I have broken someone's bones.
I am paranoid sometimes.(sometimes?)
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now
I LOVE sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I could not survive without Caller I.D
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I am always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex. (toilets and FISHES!)
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop
Enjoy window shopping
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I am a pretty good dancer.
I am completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I have rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future
I have changed a diaper before.
I have called the cops on a friend before.
I am not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I am obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most ALL of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I have ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonalds restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I cannot live without black eyeliner.
I do not know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes
I cannot whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I cannot stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring
I have a tattoo.
I cannot stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I am an artist.(slacking is an art)
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie
why am I missing you?
why do my eyes light up at an sms?
why do I roll your name on my tongue?
And most of all, why am I writing all this here?
4:35 PM
weird internet @
The past few days have been weird
but then again, I say that about everything.
I'm currently at aik's house again
he's playing CS and killing everyone
gahhh
phone back
I have it for as long as my mum doesn't realise
which might be tonight
then I'll just end up calling people again
The phone call with inez was rushed...
but it certainly brought new things to light
gahhhhssss
Im not supposed to miss you
I don't allow myself to
but then again, I say that about everything.
I'm currently at aik's house again
he's playing CS and killing everyone
gahhh
phone back
I have it for as long as my mum doesn't realise
which might be tonight
then I'll just end up calling people again
The phone call with inez was rushed...
but it certainly brought new things to light
gahhhhssss
Im not supposed to miss you
I don't allow myself to
4:23 PM
weeks of lethargicness @ Friday, July 14, 2006
School brings about depression
Everyone seems uber depressed
wonder why...
Everyone seems uber depressed
wonder why...
8:51 PM
in school @
I'm blogging from school
which I'm not supposed to do
me bad
stomache
I shall blog when I get home
at 7pm...
which I'm not supposed to do
me bad
stomache
I shall blog when I get home
at 7pm...
10:32 AM
Quizzy @ Thursday, July 13, 2006
QUIZ:DO NOT CHEAT!!!No reading ahead...
just answer the questions in order!
When u choose names, make sure it's someboday u really know.
Go with your first instinct. DO THIS NOW!!
1. beside numbers 1 and 2, write down any two numbers you want.
2. beside numbers 3 and 7, write down the names of members of the opposite sex.
3. write down anyone's name, friends or family, in the fourth, fifth and sixth spots.
4. write down four song titles in 8,9,10 and 11.
1. 3
2. 13
3. Benn
4. Inez
5. Brian
6. David
7. Ariel
8. Little Superhero Girl by Corrine May
9. Ever The Same by Rob Thomas
10. Blind by Lifehouse
11. Shes On My Mind by Teddy Geiger
Answer Key
1. You must tell the numbers in the spaces 1 and 2 people about this quiz.
2. The person in space 3 is the one you love. (hahaz. Benn. Riiight )
3. The person in 7 is the person you like but cant work out. (Ariel. Thats even more ridiculous)
4. You care about the person you put in 4 (Inez? Of course I do)
5. the person u name in number 5 is the one who knows u well. (Brian. Yea. Sorta.)
6. the person u name in 6 is ur lucky star. (David. O.o He put me too o.O )
7. the song in 8 is the song that matches with the person in number 3. (Little Superhero Girl. Hahaz. It does sound like Benn.)
8. the title in 9 is the is the song for the person in 7. (Ever The Same. Doesn't make sense altough it does bring something to mine.)
9. the tenth space is the song that tells you most about your mind. (Blind. Hahaz. So I'm blind?)
10. the eleventh ans is the song telling you how u feel about your life. (Shes On My Mind. I do have 'shes' on my mind.)
just answer the questions in order!
When u choose names, make sure it's someboday u really know.
Go with your first instinct. DO THIS NOW!!
1. beside numbers 1 and 2, write down any two numbers you want.
2. beside numbers 3 and 7, write down the names of members of the opposite sex.
3. write down anyone's name, friends or family, in the fourth, fifth and sixth spots.
4. write down four song titles in 8,9,10 and 11.
1. 3
2. 13
3. Benn
4. Inez
5. Brian
6. David
7. Ariel
8. Little Superhero Girl by Corrine May
9. Ever The Same by Rob Thomas
10. Blind by Lifehouse
11. Shes On My Mind by Teddy Geiger
Answer Key
1. You must tell the numbers in the spaces 1 and 2 people about this quiz.
2. The person in space 3 is the one you love. (hahaz. Benn. Riiight )
3. The person in 7 is the person you like but cant work out. (Ariel. Thats even more ridiculous)
4. You care about the person you put in 4 (Inez? Of course I do)
5. the person u name in number 5 is the one who knows u well. (Brian. Yea. Sorta.)
6. the person u name in 6 is ur lucky star. (David. O.o He put me too o.O )
7. the song in 8 is the song that matches with the person in number 3. (Little Superhero Girl. Hahaz. It does sound like Benn.)
8. the title in 9 is the is the song for the person in 7. (Ever The Same. Doesn't make sense altough it does bring something to mine.)
9. the tenth space is the song that tells you most about your mind. (Blind. Hahaz. So I'm blind?)
10. the eleventh ans is the song telling you how u feel about your life. (Shes On My Mind. I do have 'shes' on my mind.)
4:24 PM
Bahhhhhhhhhh @ Tuesday, July 11, 2006
I've got to stop posting my depressing thoughts online
I've seen what they can do
gahhhhhh....
I didn't mean to do what I did
I'm sorry...
I've seen what they can do
gahhhhhh....
I didn't mean to do what I did
I'm sorry...
10:21 PM
mixed emotions. @
I feel really really weirded...
My parents made me feel disappointed with myself
My sisters made me feel like a fugitive
Brian made me feel annoyed
I'm over the moon from what someone said
Guilty from what she said
Another brought a smile to my face
Another puffed my ego (popped already thank you)
Is school the cause?
is it better to feel nothing
or to feel happiness and pain?
My parents made me feel disappointed with myself
My sisters made me feel like a fugitive
Brian made me feel annoyed
I'm over the moon from what someone said
Guilty from what she said
Another brought a smile to my face
Another puffed my ego (popped already thank you)
Is school the cause?
is it better to feel nothing
or to feel happiness and pain?
12:42 AM
Liars... @ Monday, July 10, 2006
I hate it when people lie to me.
Especially family and friends.
I know you lied.
Especially family and friends.
I know you lied.
11:48 PM
Early morning depression @
right about now I'm feeling mighty depressed.
That might have something to do with Brian's wonderfully depressing outlook on life.
Its amazing how life has this tendency to drive us apart.
How many of us can testify to keeping every relationship we've ever made.
Didn't think there were.
Its so hard
When you try and try again
To bring back what was
To make things the way they were
sometimes its not your fault
sometimes you have things to tend to
and its impossible to meet
or to talk to each other
sometimes its another person
who confuses you
changes your opinion of me
and you find it just so hard to trust again
Sometimes complete coincidences
just reveal something
that you can't accept
or that create wrong impressions
sometimes past experiences
past hurts
past pains
stop what can be
both of us fear of what could happen
sometimes its something too private
and no matter how many times I ask
you won't tell
but you'll just shrug off the question.
Everything seems better when we talk.
But we have to face reality
like we once did.
That might have something to do with Brian's wonderfully depressing outlook on life.
Its amazing how life has this tendency to drive us apart.
How many of us can testify to keeping every relationship we've ever made.
Didn't think there were.
Its so hard
When you try and try again
To bring back what was
To make things the way they were
sometimes its not your fault
sometimes you have things to tend to
and its impossible to meet
or to talk to each other
sometimes its another person
who confuses you
changes your opinion of me
and you find it just so hard to trust again
Sometimes complete coincidences
just reveal something
that you can't accept
or that create wrong impressions
sometimes past experiences
past hurts
past pains
stop what can be
both of us fear of what could happen
sometimes its something too private
and no matter how many times I ask
you won't tell
but you'll just shrug off the question.
Everything seems better when we talk.
But we have to face reality
like we once did.
1:00 AM
Late night depression, late night happiness @ Sunday, July 09, 2006
Its 1:27 am
I've been messaging since 10pm
in this one day I've busted my phone bill
yea
Was kinda depressed
But some people helped me feel alot better
Namely
Jayni
Michel
Vera
Joelle
Xue Er
Ariel
Yea
Im alot happier
And im watching the match later.
I've been messaging since 10pm
in this one day I've busted my phone bill
yea
Was kinda depressed
But some people helped me feel alot better
Namely
Jayni
Michel
Vera
Joelle
Xue Er
Ariel
Yea
Im alot happier
And im watching the match later.
1:22 AM
Poem about water @ Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Pure and clean
Cool and clam
Grant of life
Rule the realm
Wash away
Pain and blood
Heal the sick
Scour the mud
Kill the poor
Drown the weak
Death due sure
Death doth seek
Life and death
Blend together
Rule and reign
Through stormy weather
Giver of life
Vengeful power
Mixed inside
Sweet and sour
The rising tide
She comes immortal
Run and hide
Or beg and grovel
Cool and clam
Grant of life
Rule the realm
Wash away
Pain and blood
Heal the sick
Scour the mud
Kill the poor
Drown the weak
Death due sure
Death doth seek
Life and death
Blend together
Rule and reign
Through stormy weather
Giver of life
Vengeful power
Mixed inside
Sweet and sour
The rising tide
She comes immortal
Run and hide
Or beg and grovel
Labels: poem
5:16 PM
why I'm not online @
If you want to know why I'm not online, I shall put it simple. Even in bullet point form
The school sent a letter to my parents
My mum goes insane and locks up the internet I can now almost never go online except illegally ie. now. I'm blogging from my friend's house however, I do have a plan I can use to lock up my com so even my mum can't access it but my conscience tells me no what do I do?
in other news, I slept 2 hours last night and watched italy vs germany.
I feel... betrayed...
in other news, I slept 2 hours last night and watched italy vs germany.
I feel... betrayed...
4:58 PM
quizzes @ Monday, July 03, 2006
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
| You Should Be a Film Writer |
 You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind. You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life. Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling. And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen! |
| Your Observation Skills Get A B+ |
 Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time) And it takes something big to distract you! |
| How You Are In Love |
 You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time. You give and take equally in relationships. You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
| What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games. |
| You Are Coke |
 A true original and classic, you represent the best of everything you can offer. Just the right amount of sweet, just the right amount of energy... you're the life of the party. Your best soda match: Mountain Dew Stay away from:Dr Pepper |
| Your Power Level is: 57% |
 There's a good chance you feel pretty powerful, and with good reason, you're already fairly successful. Keep developing your goals and skills, and you'll be surprised by what you can really achieve. |
| Your Inner Blood Type is AB! |
 Your personality is hard to define - you're very unconventional. And even if your personality could be defined, it would be completely different next week! Outgoing and shy, sensitive and thoughtless, you tend to have a very split personality. This makes you unpredictable. You can be a total angel - and a total devil. You are most compatible with: everyone! Famous Type AB's: Jackie Chan and Marilyn Monroe |
| You Are a Golden Retriever Puppy |
 Tolerant, fun-loving, and patient. You are eager to please - and attached to your frisbee. |
| You Are 84% Open Minded |
 You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out! Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand. You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting. You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself. |
and that makes 10
what can I say?
its 2:10am in the morning
and I'm very very bored.
1:33 AM
SYF @
Well, yesterday was weird.
Woke up at 12
went down for tech team
serving for RGB
I always serve at communion weirdly
Anyway, I did the lyrics
and I screwed up the annoucements
bahh
then went to macs
quite fun really
shan't elaborate cause I'm lazy
Today was quite good really
woke up at 2 with my mum screaming in my ear
which wasn't good
but SYF was
GOOD JOB JOANNA
yea
GOOD JOB DANIA
yea
right
playing with the clappers
fun
hai...
planned to suddenly go philosophical
but im tired...
Woke up at 12
went down for tech team
serving for RGB
I always serve at communion weirdly
Anyway, I did the lyrics
and I screwed up the annoucements
bahh
then went to macs
quite fun really
shan't elaborate cause I'm lazy
Today was quite good really
woke up at 2 with my mum screaming in my ear
which wasn't good
but SYF was
GOOD JOB JOANNA
yea
GOOD JOB DANIA
yea
right
playing with the clappers
fun
hai...
planned to suddenly go philosophical
but im tired...
12:43 AM
GERMANY!!!! @ Saturday, July 01, 2006
its 2:30 am
Germany won teh match against argentina
germany OWN-DED
yea
4-2 on penalty shootout
rocks
nights
Germany won teh match against argentina
germany OWN-DED
yea
4-2 on penalty shootout
rocks
nights
2:27 AM