ni, lazy to blog
life's been good lately :D

except for maybe the fever I had
but I'm fine now :D

will blog more another time

(edit)
bored enough, so I shall do the '10 things to 10 people' thing

1. it annoys me, your pathetic excuses to why you can't talk to me. Sure, I don't really start conversations with you, but how am I supposed to when your responses are quite literally dead. I've never consciously done anything to hurt you, I defended you when it cost me, when you ignored me I didn't say anything, when you wanted to be my friend again I welcomed you with open arms. You say I'm your guilt. some days you don't act like it. I've been the best friend I could have been to you, but some days I doubt you're worth it.

2. its weird. Those days where we were so wrapped up in love are gone. Well, not really gone. Its like, that love's been converted. Into... other kinds of love. Like energy. I don't really mind. I've always liked your company. nice to talk non-threateningly.

3. sorry. Funny how I nearly called you by the name of another that held your place a long time ago. glad you didn't realise though

4. There are days where I'd really appreciate if I could count on you. Those days now come more often

5. Ugh, its annoying. I want to, but I can't. No, no, kairos! must be all about the freaking timing.

6. Wish I had talked more to you. I came to the conclusion that I can't be close to everyone a long time ago. Its more annoying when you try but the person retreats into their personal shell. annoying.

7. 6 years. 6 years. I just wish you'd get over your fear and realise my church isn't that bad a place. Should have come for Father's Love. It was made for you.

8. I'm sorry for neglecting you. But you can't depend on me forever! I like being the one you depend upon but I can't be the only one. Its not good for you. I worry.

9. I wonder if I'm wasting my breath sometimes. I probably am. All I hope for is for you to look back one day and go "hey, gideon was right, I should have listened"

10. Please! For my sake! GET OVER HER!

well that was... emotionally amusing. yes, very