Desert Song



This is my prayer in the desert
When all that’s within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I’ll stand

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I’m filled to be emptied again
The seed I’ve received I will sow



I know I'm filled to be emptied again



so now you know
now you both know

I'm sorry
beyond your possible comprehension
I'm sorry.



This is my resolve
let it never happen again.

weekend winddown?
just maybe

friday
whop, nothing
slept little

saturday
school for annoying stuff
church, dry run for sunday service
niiiii, annoying
but fun, none-the-less
Sp briefing for HPMG
service!
awesomeness awesomeness awesomeness
midway through worship, God shows me...

a pepsi can
you heard me, a pepsi can
confused, I ask God what it means
He smiles, and says "Gid, ask for more.
Ask of me, and I will make the nations your inheritance, the ends of the earth your possession.
Psalms 2:8"

I love my God :D

Jesus already won the victory for you
just go out there and claim it ;)

FUEL
fun time
chocolate goes to the bloodstream very quickly
of course serious stuff, but good serious stuff
the point is to learn :)

dinner
meh
home

sunday
woke up
lunch
tuition
home
D:
boring!

heh, but I have plans :p

Psalm 23

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,he leads me beside quiet waters,
He restores my soul.He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and our staff, they comfort me.

you prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

There's alot more to be elaborated on those words
and I encourage you not to just scroll pass them, but really, take the time to understand not the words
but the heart of the psalmist, the heart of David
and hear them the way they were meant to be said



the way they're meant to be said?
yes, the way they're meant to be said
in child-like faith
knowing, believing, with all the conviction in your heart
the way its meant to be :)

little miss called to greatness ;)

extract: Legacy of the Drow: Book Three: Siege of Darkness
Part 3, pg. 634
"In the heart, there is no sting greater than watching the struggles of one you love, knowing that only through strife will that person grow and recognize the potential of his or her existence."

I sense your resolve, don't you dare let it falter

go
and don't look back
cause only then can you grow
can you find your destiny
your greatness.

go
grow

will do a "10 things to 10 people" soon
and also a june birthday roundup

but for this moment, just a moment
leave me with my Lord :)

thursday thursday thursday
just finished a mad barrage of chinese jianbaos
how annoying
its strange, I have background music in my head
oh wait that's not the strange part
the strange part is that's its classical music
who what huh?
I know, I'm as puzzled as you are
ANYWAY

tuesday
sleep late
wake up early
go school
sleep
go home
sleep
read
sleep

I'm in the middle of the Legacy of the Drow series, featuring Drizzt Do'Urden of Forgotten Realms fame
and to suffice, its been keeping me up
its so annoying, even when its one in the morning and I have to get up at six, somehow I can't help but flip the pages
but enough of that

wednesday
sleep late
wake up early
go school
sleep
go home
sleep
read
sleep

oh wait!
there was something else!
watched get smart with fang and julian

fang: eh, let's watch get smart
julian: with who? which idiot will be so bored to go watch a movie so fast?
f: gideon lahh
j: oh yahhh

heh, its a hilarious movie, starring Steve Carell from The Office
man that guy is funny
just his facial expressions while he cracks his jokes is stupendous
the inner comedian in me is amazed!
hahaha
good film :D

by the way, I get very very annoyed at people who pronounce 'film' as 'flim'. Like, 'flim'-sy.
ugh.
yes, I'm an english snob, so there :p

thursday
sleep late
wake up early
go school
sleep
go home
sleep
read
sleep

except today I had CIP
MacRitchie reforestation
Acsi boys make DOTA jokes EVEN while weeding plants
its... amusing?
maybe

oh, and also, I actually did work
well, after much prodding
and also because if I didn't then I would die a horrible death tomorrow
painful and embarrassing.
just the right triggers I need to do work

my mornings are unforgiving
messaging or talking into my phone every few minutes usually keeps me awake
in its void, I have nothing to do but stare out the window
and that's not really engaging...
hmph, but I stand by my choice
and looking at the circumstances, I think my bill this month should drop quite drastically
give me a moment, I hear my parents rejoicing

I shall end off with this quote from The Legacy by R.A. Salvatore
"Memories. This is the immortality of the spirit, the ever-lingering legacy, the fuel of grief.
But so, too, the fuel of faith"

believing in what we are uncertain
trusting in what we do not see
faith beyond your limits

shall begin with a recap

Saturday
woke up
watched tv
sister alicia came over (I'm not sure why)
left to church with her
...
and so began the mad rush
I was serving for tech team RGB
and apparently my members didn't know and couldn't make it
>.<
so I had to call down jackie
who did a fantastic job (arigato!)
then had to practice for the short drama skit
embarrassing ourselves outside chapel :p
very fun though
oh oh oh, if you look at the bend in the '7' of '06.07.08', you'll notice MY NAME
in large, red letters
:D
the banner for the group of the same name at last year's youth camp
ANYWAY
also, had to wear the ridiculous placard thingy for praise
the same placard thingy that I actually designed
pretty much?
my awesome drawing skills :p
SERVICE
coming to the altar
powerful, powerful word
suffice to say, I cried
FUEL
sister yinting looked so stoned at our letters!
we were so hurt D:
kidding :p
sis yt is... sis yt lah
her wood-face still shows a bit of emotion wannn, just need to look for it :p
anyway, wo men yong yuan hui ai ni yin ting jie jie!
HAHAHAHAHA

Sunday
Woke up on time okay!
just... left the house late :p
thankfully, wasn't too late
made it to church on time
gave out presents!
:D
to parents that deserve them
then, went serenes
home
lunch
grandparents
birthday dinner (for my dear, dear sister)
I ate 7 plates of food
mah belly
okay, nevermind, too small

Monday
ahhh, school begins again
I guess... I'm okay with it :D
didn't do my work again :p
still managed to survive
hahahaha, goofing off at chem prac.
my right arm got splattered with nitric acid >.<
felt like a bunch of ants biting again and again
ow.

I'm lonely in the mornings
I've got no one to message and/or call D:
graaaaawr

just so you know, I read it anyway

I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here

I miss you



but at the altars I've lain you down
and now there's no turning back

Do as infinity



"Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain."
1 Chronicles 4:10

1. bless this ministry
2. enlarge our territory
3. be with us
4. keep us from pain

this is my prayer.

nah, nanana, nah nah nanana
this is my blog's official 400TH POST!
:D/:O
I'm actually surprised it lasted this long

I don't actually blog alot, more like regularly
its a subconscious thing that I do every time I go on the computerrr

anyway, thank you all for taking time out of your day to read my random, nonsensical, and often retarded comments
a-ri-ga-to!

okay, recap!
THURSDAY
woke up eaaaarly
well, for me
and went down to serene
thought I was going to be late for the drama min thing
turns out, the only one that was there was reuben
so we sat and ate breakfast
met some of the people who were going for SP course
ariel mae, janella, lester and jackie
who were having their own breakfast
promptly chased them off and kop-ped their table
drama min thing was fun
talk talk talk, jump around and sing, talk some more, go out for lunch, talk some more, watch movie, talk some more, conclude
drama min are fun worzzz
heh :D
then, dinner
doing up the props that people will see TODAY
my horrid handwriting D:
but it was good fun :)

FRIDAY
slept at 3 in the morning
woke up at a comfortable 10.30 am
went down to ariel's house
surprise!
first one there!
:O
have to do that less often, I've got a reputation to keep
the one about me being notoriously late
anyway!
great fun :D
taboooooo
heh, ___ wants ___ to be his?
WIFE!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
and when someone turned on the fan because SOMEONE was hot
heh :D

and today
woke up at 9
thought it was 12
its weird, my dreams keep distorting my reality
its good to wake up and get a grip on things

and in celebration of my 400th post
a collaborated work between dearest xue er and I

Gideon Goh is so lame
It's his only shot to fame
His genius puts all to shame
His brilliance of critical acclaim
He goes to ACSI
Oh my
My brother almost went there, sigh sigh sigh
He knows this person, his half life friend
who's randomness has almost no end
Then again, this half life friend
He thinks she's awesome cool
she freaks him out, with her smiles
which only hide her deceitful wiles
This poem isn't going anywhere
So it's going to become a bear.
a bear with claws and sharp teeth
that bite and sink down into meat
It goes grawr, grawr, grawr
Because it wants more more more
more meat, more honey, more tasty food
more drink, more ice, from some bartender dude
and in the end he eats the bartender dude
who was very rude and his name was jude

heh, it started out nonsensical, and slowly slid into complete randomness
a bear! :O
who cares what the critics say
it was fun :D
and that's what matters

Extract: TAWG 19th June 2008
"Acts 8:26-40
v26-27"Now an angel of the Lord said to Philip 'Go south to the road - the desert road - that goes down from Jerusalem to Gaza.' So he started out, and on his way he met an Ethiopian eunuch."

1. God works in the unexpected place
He worked in the desert road, the dusty, dry, deserted desert road. God worked in the place of death, the place that only had cursory amounts of life, negligible
but that's where God moved
that's where God sent his worker, so that a work could be done

2. God works in the Journey, not the Destination
it wasn't at Gaza that Philip met the Ethiopian, nor was it in Jerusalem, nor was it in Samaria, which was were Philip was, that God did the work He wanted. If Philip was so focused that he missed what God wanted to do, what was the point?
God works in the journey, because that's where the change is
if you keep focusing solely on your destination, you never realise that God changes you in the journey, so that you can arrive at the destination.

3. God works at His convenience, not yours
when God asks you to do something, its not something IMPOSSIBLE, but its something INCONVENIENT. And sometimes inconvenient it putting it lightly. Its never something you cannot do, but its something that requires some sacrifice.
so yes, that's what its about
sacrifice of what you have"

gomen, gomen
emotions are the enemy

in the days of holidays, where I procrastinate waaaay too much
my days are boring with a capital B
like this: Boring

hmm... not as impressive
maybe with the whole thing capitalized
BORING

ooo, much better.

ANYWAY
I spend unhealthy amounts of time staring out the window
trees are pretty!
even from far away

its strange, my mood constantly shifts between (in decreasing order of frequency)
1)deliriously high
2)spastic randomness
3)immensely irritated
and
4)incredibly depressed

whop-di-do

I will take up my cross and follow Lord where you lead me
And I will take up my cross and follow wherever you go

though none go with me, I still will follow
though none go with me, I still will follow
though none go with me, I still will follow
no turning back, no turning back.

and I offer devotion

the slow rays peek out over the horizon
sparking a magnificent red and orange
as the rays set the clouds on fire
below the gloriously wakening blue

beautiful
absolutely, stunningly beautiful

a reprieve
in these baby hours

a reprieve
before jumping back into my life

its strange, I think I'll be posting more on sundays now

ANYWAY
reason I haven't been blogging is because my monitor's been down
meaning my computer screen refused to work
>.<
thankfully, PC show is on (everything in God's time aye?), so we managed to get a brand-spanking-new monitor which I like
:D :D :D :D :D

its actually HD ready, so yay! better to watch my anime on :D

whoa, week-long recap
(still too lazy to complete my camp recap)

TUESDAY
went to RACEE vivo for sectional outing
hahaha, much fun
and in true gideon fashion, I arrived... LATE
but what else is new :p
it was fun splashing around at the third floor
unfortunately, I was in jeans -.-
so I didn't get to splash around as much as I would have liked
danng

WEDNESDAY
was SUPPOSED to go down for buzz group video thingy
but woke up with a temperature of 38 degrees and a splitting headache
so they let me sleep
UNFORTUNATELY
chinese tuition at 1.30 was still on
-.-
but I guess I've been skipping tuition
so it was only fair to go

afterward, met aud and val for ice cream at the beauty world macs
with my younger sister
very fun :D

THURSDAY
SP empowerment
shall say nothing about lunch
other than... interesting
ANYWAY
was much, much fun
I was supposed to be mute!
mute!
me, adriel and ruth
the three biggest talkers
mute!
:O
but we survived
I later became blind and mute, then just blind
heh, but I had loads of fun
and even better
the flooding of God's spirit :D
just... amazing


FRIDAY
the actual sectional outing!
woke up with my headache again
went to see the doctor in the morning
said it was fine, probably a stomach virus that would go away in a few days
so, doctor's recommendation

finally got to splash around at vivo!
heh, waterguns are fun
and my aim is really really good okay :D
I always hit either the eye or the ear
both my favourite targets ;D

went to sentosaaaaa
played at the beach like madmen
volleyball is good fun :D
even if we all suck at it :p
emoing on the rocks
getting thrown in the water
the greenish, sandy, dirty water
:D
good fun
after washing up, went to the LUGE
HAHA, on the chairlift up, I sat on one end, bro andy sat on the other
AND THE WHOLE CHAIRLIFT TILTED TO HIS SIDE
SUPERFUNNNY
I wish I bought the photo :/
LUGE WAS FUNNNNN
ended up accidentally hitting people :p
whoops
then back to vivo for dinner and card tricks
fun :D

SATURDAY
felt sooooo strange
it was like it wasn't saturday
my whole day was free
whooooole day
and with the computer down, I pretty much spent the whole day in front of the tv
thankfully, went out for dinner, so my day was saved
see, the problem is that when I'm left on my own, I tend to think
and right now... it isn't a good time in my life to think
it would be much better to forget
but no, denied that luxury :(
ah well

SUNDAY
service
lunch
grandparents
(hey, its my father's father's day too!)
and then dinner with the family
:D

I'm thinking about changing my blogskin again
see how lah

graaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawr
I haven't read the letter yet
I don't know if I should
spent the day playing around with it, but never, never opening it
still debating

you get used to it
it doesn't get any easier
but you get used to it

time like these I'm disgusted with myself
am I becoming the person that I swore never to become?

new blogskin
does it look... FAMILIAR?

yes, its the old one, with a new picture
yay!

anyway, still rolling out the kinks
I've realised that if I post twice in the same day, the earlier one DISAPPEARS
:O

yea, anyway
enjoy!

yes yes, back back back
who me?
yes you!
couldn't be!
then who?
gideon!
yes, randomness

whoosh, the fun-ness of church camp
great, great fun
bonding with my mum and younger sister
bonding with my mum's cell group
bonding with my new kaki, abel and haruki
great sermons
great touches from God :D

be fire-hearted

mmmph, this post seems to be turning out to be alot shorter than I intended
hmmmmm

well, might as well do a run-down of camp

DAY 1:
I didn't sleep the whole night
graaawr
gives you an idea how tired I was
hahaha, oh yes, and if you got called in the morning by me, means you're close to me ;)
anyway, flight TG402 lifted-off at 7.30 on the 2nd of june
touched down at 8.30, local time
thailand's one hour back

on the coach to holiday inn regent beach
sat in the same coach as jeann and jas choe
jas choe seemed... high on something
couldn't stop laughing
I ended up falling asleep... 15 minutes before the pitstop
>.<
then falling asleep again...
30 minutes from the actual hotel
>.<
BUT FINALLY
arrived at the hotel 1.30 bangkok time
promptly checked in with my mum and younger sister
went to my room
fell on the bed, fell asleep

woke up at 4.30
in time for dinner
then service
Rev. David Doery
great sermon on having God's heart for His people
I was tearing during the sermon
the sermon!
no worship, no music
the sermon!
that powerful
when the altar call was given, I practically ran to the altars
bawled my eyes out
what can I say?
presence of God
what was I supposed to do?

ANYWAY
went back to my room
slept... late

ni, shall continue this some other time
tired
had to drag myself through that above portion
just not in the mood I guess?

at this point in time, its either laugh or cry
I'm sitting somewhere in the middle

His name is power
His voice is thunder
His heart is tender
His hand is strong

I'm not going to ask God to do anything for me
because its about time I start doing more things for God

goodbye
not see you later
goodbye

if you love me
why don't you let me go

oh, and before I leave

may birthday shoutouts!
a kind of recollection of how the month went

2nd May:
Joaaaaan!
happy birthday :)
its great to see you growing in God, as well as growing as a leader

4th May:
Matthew Lee/Rupert/Harry/whatever your name is this week
happy birthday
thank you for the many laughs you have brought me, and killing my time most effectively

10th May:
Mr. Nathan Ng
happy birthday
Thank you for being in my buzz group, for your random random random comments taht make the whole group laugh
grow well in God, get back to where God wants you to be!

14th May:
PIKKYYYYYYYYYY
happy birthday!
heh, thanks for conversations late at night
stupid comments that amuse the class
and for the many free lunches of instant indonesian noodles at your house

21st May:
Miss Inez Lim
happy birthday (:
you're somewhere in cha'am right now
probably will see you within 24 hours
anyway, I'm betting you thought I forgot your birthday
I'll admit, I almost did
but somewhere at 10.45pm that night I remembered
and tried to call
you didn't pick up, ah well
STILL
happy birthday
still friends ;)

sharing that day
matthew wonggg
I'm linked on your blog, hmmm
anyway, thanks for being my classmate of 3 years
putting up with all sorts of stupid stuff I've said
a-ri-ga-to!

28th May:
Dania Chan!
happy birthday!
thanks for your ever-so-random "hey giddy!" whenever I walk past :p
you're oldddddd now!

29th May:
Alison Koh
happy happy birthdayyyyy!
heh, said enough to you ;)
grow wiser, stronger
and listen hard for God's voice!

and finally,
31st May:
Raemiguel Lee
happy birthday!
I remember the first time we met was on the bus 74 when I was feeling really bored and struck up a conversation with you, who happened to be sitting next to me
then came the realisation that you were actually in .10 and knew jon lim and tim goh
never been in my class, but its always been a pleasure knowing you
happy birthday!

there done
not posting till I return
see ya!

yes, this is going to be one of those posts that fill up the page

lets see now
watched prince caspian
REALLY REALLY GOOD
GO WATCH IT
NOW!
the graphics are brilliant
I love the way that, even though the producers strayed from the book, they did so in a way that made the characters seem even more realistic
also, not giving too much away, I love the way edmund redeems himself for what he did in the first movie
"I know, you had it sorted"
awesomeness in a compact screen
although it has its problems
its not perfect
but then again, what is
the fight scene between "king miraz" and "high king peter" had WAY too many grunts
its like they can't blink without making the grunting equivalent of three elephants snorting at the exact same moment
still, good fight scenes

after I stepped out of the theater, I had this feeling like I had just woken up from a long dream

THAT GOOD

yes, better than indy jones

saturday
whoooo-hoo
came to church at 1.30
it was really funny, because I met mel in the bus (and actually at the bus stop)
and we both thought we would be really late
but apparently, everyone else was later :p
anywayyy
planned stuff
prepared tech team slides
as well as publicity for july event
glad everything went swimmingly
I'm proud of theodore and pearl
even though I wasn't at the tech booth half the time, they managed to hold the fort quite well
they learn fast ;)
and I'll be sad to see my team go D:
but every ending is another beginning aye?

its the end of the beginning of the end
which is the beginning of the middle of the end

yes, randomness

during the worship, I sensed such a... tiredness in the air
it was like we couldn't worship because so much of our heart was choked up by the circumstances of life

but at altar call
chains be broken
lives be healed
eyes be opened
Christ is revealed
I was bouncing as I stood at the back
this incredible sensation of freedom just flooded the room
God's spirit was just moving, taking away burdens not meant to be carried, breaking chains not meant to hold back, healing lives not needing to be hurt
His spirit just moving among His people

make a joyful noise for victory, yo ;)

I heart my buzz group
even if our cheer was... weird
but I'm glad at how close we've become :D

dinner
had to drag my little sister around

sunday
usual stuff
lunch, grandparents house, library, home
now taking a break from packing my stuff for church camp

church campppppppp
heh
starts tomorrow
we have to lug stuff to help the church
grawr
nah, I'm glad we can serve :)

I'll only be back on the 7th
saturday
my flight touches down at 7.30pm
so I'll miss service and fuel
grawr
ah well

for all you people undecided
simple, follow what God wants
and for all you who already know where God wants you to go
WHAT ARE YOU COMPLAINING FOR?
you sang "I will go"
you meant it in your heart
God heard it, didn't forget it
so now the going gets tough
you get going!

its that simple

I trust God
Proverbs 19:21
"many are the plans in a man's heart
but the purposes of God will prevail"

I have decided, I have resolved

surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
certain as the dawn appears

at the break of day
God will help her at the break of day - Psalms 46:5

sure, I'm not okay, but I'm getting better everyday
because my God heals

till saturday