whoo - wee, what a weekend its been :D

EXIT
haha, went for both days
first day was with Wei ren
and Cherry and janice came too!
came late and left early :p
no matter,
anyway, heard that the attendance was a record high
awesome part was that Daryl accepted Christ :D :D :D :D :D
yea!

sunday was good too :)
met with buzz group first
celebrated sis yt's birthday
exit was amazing, as expected
kudos to the whole team

and today there was rejoicing in heaven :D

I think the capacity to love is an amazing miracle.

wheee, week has ENDED.

monday
was such a draaaaaaaaag
nothing to do in schooool

tuesday
was funny
because we all felt so slackish
and tuition at the end of the day felt tiring >.<
but it was alright

wednesday
hahaha, week B wednesdays are always so free-like
there's a saying in our class, "week B wednesdays, classes end at 9"
simply because chinese ends at 9, and everything else from that point on is just slacking off :D

thursday
lots of crappy lessons
but half the class was away at higher chinese prelims
so it was still pretty slack
and I understood more math :D:D:D
plus plus, report books back
term marks KICKED ASS
chinese was a whopping 72 :D
highest all year (sadly?)
both maths were 90+
hahaha, my mum was puzzled how evelyn tan gave me bad reviews for chem, but yet I scored 90
and how jason chan gave me awesome reviews for physics and I got 59
STRANGE
total subject average, 80.8% :O
*NOTICE THE AWESOMENESS*

friday
teachers day :p
all I remember is SOMEHOW falling asleep at the start of the concert
and waking up at "students may now leave"

heh

wahhhhh, boredom
tomorrow be awesome
EXIT :D
see ya there ;)

waaaah, tiring weekend

friday night was sleeping late
to help my sis set up her laptop
then, sleeping at 5 in the morning

heard this awesome cool song on scrubs the other day
scrubs is awesome funny! :D



its called "Good Life" by Francis Dunnery
its really nice :D

anyway
sat
woke up at 1:30
went down to church for service
heh, worship leader :p

EXIT rehearsal
oh! that reminds me
EXIT TRAILER :D:D:D:D



yes yes :D
if you're reading this and you think its cool,
COME FOR IT :D

anyway, reached back home at 11
crashed at 12:30

woke up at 7,
went down to church
P Gerald preached on recognizing the voice of God
heh, "if its God's voice, you will know it"
too true :D



I guess it sucks to be reminded that what you've done, you can't undo
and that sometimes what you lose can't be taken back again.

but its in those moments where you remember that you aren't too far gone
that you just think you are.
that you still have hope.
Because God is still out there
waiting.
And it sucks to think of the time gone
and it sucks to think about what's ahead.

so don't.

shut away your yesterdays and tomorrows
and leave yourself,
alone with the King.
Who gave you another chance
so its about time to take it.


ni, nothing much else
shall take an afternoon nap
then watch more SCRUBS :D

whaaaaa, tiring week

monday
slack slack slack, nothing much really

tuesday
MPP finals!
the whole team was decked out in blazers
which are really fun to wear, provided there's air-con
because if there isn't, well, you find out why their called blazers (haha, funny!)
anyway, we lost for the debates, although we did win best bill
well, duh, 96 pages of hard work had better win first prize :p
hopefully, gavin ang will still treat us all to crystal jade!

afterward,
found out that it really was our class that drove away catherine ang
no really, one lesson with us and she pretty much snapped
"You boys mean nothing to me! You think I have a passion for teaching? I have no passion for teaching! I despise you!"
No, I'm not making this up, everyone in the room will agree that that was what she said
I guess my class respects those teachers that respect us?
Jarret Kan, Kenneth Ong, we behave during their lessons, because they really do show us some respect
heh, and when we moved the OHP behind, cut out the Batman logo on a piece of paper, and shone a bat spotlight on the ceiling ("Oh look sir! I have to go! Gotham city needs me!"), they laughed!
because they had a sense of humor.

wednesday
teh mad homework struggle
apparently I forgot all about the chem test on thursday, plus the C math coursework
>.<

thursday
1st period: A math
what I was doing: C math
2nd period: Lang arts A
what I was doing: chinese
3rd period: reccess
what I was doing: GUESS (food called! I can't resist)
4th period: chem
what I was doing: (probably) getting 3rd in class!... from the bottom
5th period: IHS
what I was doing: ducking my head and hoping Peter Davies wouldn't call us to present
6th period: history
what I was doing: actual history! :O
7th period: C math
what I was doing: pixel art!
8th period: PC
what I was doing: sleeping

yep, stressful much
thankfully, everything got done on time, PLUS no school today
which is why I woke up at 10 :D

I've been youtubing alot recently
so here are 4 videos for your viewing pleasure.

The Spectrum Song
(the musical equivalent of being on crack)





Straight No Chaser - Christmas Medley
(I know its early, but its good music. Straight No Chaser is an a capella group from the indiana university in the US, and they're really good)





Music from XP
(really, really bored and talented people made this)





The Little Things - Colbie Caillat




two more awesome songs you should listen to if you have the time:
One Step At A Time - Jordin Sparks
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzyys6kW8yg

These Walls - Teddy Geiger
I thing I re-found my liking for the song, it sounds awesome.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P8GU-aullq8

ni, now for the poof!

heh, good day much :D
woke up on time :O
made it early for fuel :)
great session on sharing the gospel
I love how open we are
really like a family (:

service
mind-blowing kind of amazing :)
God just showed up

one step at a time

He's always with me

wheeeeee, week
funny stranggggge
I feel weird O.o
ni, lazy to blog
poof!

whooooooooo!
just came back from (finally) watching The Dark Knight
unbelievably awesomeness.
yes, I know its wrong grammatically, but its awesome enough to deserve a little bending of english law.
so there.
:p

Its been such a roller coaster of emotions this whole day

and the words of God whispered at the altars.
the suitcases of guilt, left at the base of the cross on a hill, along the path of righteousness;
the concrete trunk of fear, unhooked off of the weary back;
the weariness, the worry, washed away
as He says again "I won't pass you by"
"I won't pass you by"
"I won't leave you, I won't forsake you"
"I can't."
"I sent my son, my only son, to die for you;"
"I've sent people into your life to speak words I told them to"
"I've sent you dreams, visions;"
"I've reached out and touched you before;"

"If I've done so much for you, what makes you think I'm going to give up now"

and the tears that flow :)
as the burdens are lifted and left
at the foot of the cross

forgiveness found
freely given, freely received.

In the garden of Gethsemane, where Jesus beheld the cup that was about to be poured out
here, we see Jesus fearful.
fearful?
We've seen Him joyful, we've seen Him weeping, we've seen Him stern
but fearful?
when Jesus came to earth, He was as much of a man as you and me
the difference?
Jesus had God inside Him, all the way
from His very birth
Jesus was God wrapped in Human skin and flesh
He faced everything we're facing, and then some
He knew fear.
He knew what fear was.
He knew fear to the point that he sweated blood
its called hematidrosis, when the body is stressed to its limits, the capillaries burst, and sweat comes out tinged with blood
"Jesus fell to the ground" (Mark 14:35)
Jesus was "full of pain" (Luke 22:44)

Here, we see Jesus at His most pained
but rather than put up a mask of strength, He looks to His Father for strength.
He prays

He says “My Father! If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.” (Matthew 26:39, NLT)

"If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away"
Jesus doesn't want it.
He knows the pain
its not just a physical pain mind you, its like throwing Himself into the very inner rooms of the enemy.
but He says, okay Father, if you need to be, because you love these people so much, then its okay, I'll do it.

He puts up no mask; instead He merely lifts up His request.

Be Christlike
put up no mask
merely lift up to Him your request
and let Him do the rest :)





whoosh-a-wa-wa
leave me a moment with my King :)
God bless

first up,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE
:D
I'm not a very patriotic person
buttt Singapore's my homeland after all

whooooa, its been a weird week
final touch-ups on the house
moving whatever's left
setting up all the stuff in the house
IHS project
chinese test
and watching code geass :D

its awesome

it feels strange


it scares me that its been two months
and I'm not sure if I'm as lost as I was
it feels that way
maybe more so

and I'm sorry all over again
and I want you to know my apology will always be offered out
because I am, and, for most of the foreseeable future, will be
sorry
and my apology will always be out there
but I can't live my life this way

and its taken me a week
but now
I forgive
myself.



eeeyyh, feeling in a lousy mood

in random news, I've been eating dinner out for two whole weeks
cause the kitchen's not fully up yet
and we've (my family) been going to tiong bahru for dinner
and I'm always dressed sloppily
so I'm hoping no one ever, ever pops up in tiong bahru plaza suddenly while I'm dressed horrigibly D:

long weeeeeeekend
I'm looking forward to it :D

I'm singin' all of Your promises won't let go of me
all of Your promises won't let go of me

heh, one step enough for me
find peace in the simpliity

mmm :)
good good good service.
I think I really needed it.
needed it so bad


"In periods of prolonged distress, we yearn for the Lord to carry us to a mountaintop, as he did Moses, and there reveal in detail the course of our lives. Instead, God requires us to wander like Abraham, as "strangers and pilgrims on the earth" (Hebrews 11:13), living on promises. To live on this side of the veil is to "walk by faith, not by sight" (2 Corinthians 5:7); it is to "feel after" the Lord (see Acts 17:27) as he lights our way home, one step at a time.

We have just sung lines by John Henry Newman that express this theme. Newman wrote "Lead, Kindly Light" aboard ship on the way home to England from Italy. He was homesick and seasick; he had just had malaria. Though he didn't know it yet, he was also about to take the first faltering steps of a spiritual pilgrimage that ultimately would lead him, and many who followed him, to another church. In these circumstances, Newman writes:

Lead, kindly Light, amid th'encircling gloom;
Lead thou me on!
The night is dark, and I am far from home;
Lead thou me on!
Keep thou my feet; I do not ask to see
The distant scene--one step enough for me. [Hymns, 1985, no. 97]"
(Taken from http://speeches.byu.edu/reader/reader.php?id=2385, accessed 3rd August 2008)

one step enough for me Lord :)
I don't need the big picture
I surrender my all
I surrender my want, my need, my yearning for control
and I trust in you

walk by faith and not by sight (:

"Lord, God, its my fault"
"Its not Gid, it really isn't"
"then who's is it?"
"mine."
"Yours?"
"Yes gid, mine. When I gave my forgiveness, I took the fault, the blame, the burden, up from your shoulders and unto mine. The fault is mine now, debt paid in blood. So will you stop beating yourself up? I've forgiven you. Now I need you to forgive yourself."

And the printing presses
that are my fists
each wound signed
certified
initialed

me.
the beasts were already gone

me.

and He stood in front of me
with eyes that bled kindness
and sadness
and so much,
so much,
love.

an open hand
raised, lifted

and the hand reached out in return

freedom found.

heh :D

the end of emo-ness :p
freedom :)

I'm okay
and getting better everyday. :D

thanks to all who provided caring looks and, more importantly, tissue! :p
no really, thank you :)

(edit)
I finally found the verse I was looking for!
Psalm 51:16-17
"You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise. "

oh look! an update!
*gasp*

anyway, if you're wondering where I've been, after my moving of house, my internet, computer, telephone line, TV, were all down for a week. So I ACTUALLY did work without distractions! *gasp!*

week's been pretty stupid.
forced isolation? maybe.

oh lookie, poem!

a gift, a curse
a blessing, a burden
misused, awry
not evil
not good
amoral

was not the choice given?
and taken.
for all the wrong reasons
and stupidity.
stupidities.

intelligence, intellect
shoved aside
set aflame.

no, no
make it again
once sunken teeth
sink again.

cold. and
falling. ever-so-
ever-so slowly. and
the dimming light in the distance as
the whole world spins away

the vicious stares
the glaring eyes
the averted gaze

in a glass box of my own creation
and outside, the sound of rapport
and rapport
and rapport
and rapport
and rapport-
the man in a mustache

and above
red ink on white planks
"see! the despair!"

the curtains rise
and the crowd gasps
in collective horror of-the-moment.

they see
they see
they see with their eyes that know everything it sees
the visage

and not
underneath
beneath
under
inside

nothing.

playing a game of fill-in-the-gap
with pieces wrought from assumptions.
assume-tions
assumes
ass.u.me.s

and thinks
and wonders
if the glass ever shatters.



no seriously, emo-ness out the nostrils!

ni, need sleep
historrrry