Random/Reflections/Revelations
friday @ Friday, May 29, 2009
so.

PTM in the morning
which I let my parents go alone
didn't feel like being there :p

anyway
the after-ptm dreaded talk
the usual
I love my parents, I do
sometimes they do come off a little annoying though
but I know they're intentions for me are the best
I know.



I need God more than I know.



[edit]
oh yes, and to you detractors that say singaporeans aren't courteous
I disagree
today, I was on the mrt
and I saw something that warmed my heart
at City Hall, one of the more busy stations
an elderly couple boarded the train
the elderly woman leading her husband
there were two seats available, the 'reserved' seat and another one five seats away
she gave the seat over to her husband, who sat down
the four commuters in between the two free seats
were not connected in any way
business man, secondary student, young teenager, auntie reading the papers
they shared glances
then each simultaneously shifted down their seats
so the elderly couple could sit together
mind you, in that time, surely someone could have taken that free seat
or one of the commuters could have put themselves above others
but each one decided that they should do the civic-minded thing
so yes, Singaporeans are courteous

SO PLEASE STOP WITH THE PCK ADVERT
IF I HEAR ANOTHER 'don't play play' SO HELP ME I WILL TAKE THOSE UGLY YELLOW BOOTS AND CHOKE HIM WITH IT.
10:56 PM

morning @
what is it about mornings that make me take a step back
hm.

I can't stand this
gaaaah
like so many other times before
I'm doing it again! >.<
putting God away
telling Him to take the back seat
focusing on myself
again.



I don't want a quick-fix
I don't want anything temporary

I want a re-working
Lord, from the ground up
from the inside out





forget it
I won't tell You how to do Your job
just close my eyes and trust You.



Jesus, oh Jesus
I give you my life
Jesus, oh Jesus
I give you my life.
7:32 AM

sunday @ Sunday, May 24, 2009
Humans are creatures of habit
and blogging on sunday is so habitual.

O, Pyrrhic victories.
It's not easy :(



So Jesus, transform me from the inside out
Consume me, with Your vision for new things to come
Use me, through Your Holy Spirit in my life
Lord hear my cry
This is my cry to live for You.



But once again, you hold on
tight
till God brings the victory.



meh, totally addicted to the many facebook games.
heh.

PHAILED PHYSICS AND CHINESE
D: D: D:
both by 2 marks
:(
aiya, God's will be done

Proverbs 19:21
"Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails"

so there.
yea.



JUNE EVENT JUNE EVENT JUNE EVENT CHINESE O'S JUNE EVENT JUNE EVENT
WHOOO.
11:21 PM

gah @ Tuesday, May 19, 2009
mehhhhhhh
I hate this :/

raaawr.
it sucks when my spirit wants so much to please God
that it scares me
and the same time my mind can get so...
twisted
it scares me
I feel the battle inside.

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

God, pull me through
I will hold on to you.
11:11 PM

@ Sunday, May 17, 2009
it's late.

I've got one of those :s balls of emotion stuck in the pit of my stomach
signal for tawgtime plx

the flesh that I fight is at best only light and momentary

Am I lost or just less found?
On the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?
Is this a soul that stirs in me, is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
Cos my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
An avoid the impending birth of who I was born to become



today, I met a new friend
who reminded me
that I was born to be
a window for this world to see
The God who made me



I was made to live
I was made to love
I was made to know You
I was made to love You
I was made to show the world
just who You are
and a more wonderful job I will never know :)



I <3 my God
1:26 AM

stumbling on these shadowfeet @ Friday, May 15, 2009
so yea, I hate it when I mess up >.<
and it feels worse when... I don't feel bad about it
there's no deep burning anger at myself, just a pit of dread annoyance at the bottom of it all

"Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
as I wait for hope to come for me"

I'm nothing Lord, a passing moment, a vapor that follows as the wind blows
You're everything to me
You're everything for me



and I hate it when I see the patterns
all the emo-ness tonight
I hate seeing the patterns and knowing
knowing
all the emotion tonight isn't special
it's just another attack

and the ones that take the hand outstretched
that overcome
find their strength
in the Lord



I'm sorry Lord
Here I am
Your hand in mine,
We will overcome.

For we
we are not long here
Our time is but a breath
so we better breathe it

And I
I was made to live
I was made to love
I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He's coming

Hope is coming for me
I will sigh and with all creation groan
as I wait for Hope to come for me
1:43 AM

pop @ Tuesday, May 12, 2009
I know I'm kinda slow on the uptake, but I recently found the song Shadowfeet by Brooke Fraser
and now, my new goal once exams are over is to make a blogskin out of it
hm
LET'S SEE HOW THAT WORKS OUT
10:39 PM

so. @ Saturday, May 09, 2009
so.
week of exams round up.

less'see, larts was okay
I did the prose cause the poem looked like something I could write
and then I looked at the author
"Brian Lee"
nope, prose.
Idontknow, call me racist, but that's just how I see it
IHS was... mehh
either I did well, or I screwed up really bad >.<
ah well
chinese paper 1
MANAGEABLE
will scrape a pass luh
but when I say scrape, think road and the skin on your knees kind of scrap
meaning, will be okay, but will be painful >.<
ah wellllll
Listening compre
I HAD THE GASTON SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD
"Gosh it disturbs me to see you, Gaston
Looking so down in the dumps
Ev'ry guy here'd love to be you, Gaston
Even when taking your lumps
There's no man in town as admired as you
You're ev'ryone's favorite guy
Ev'ryone's awed and inspired by you
And it's not very hard to see why..."


yea, annoying
where was I
OHRIGHT

physics...
WTP
paper one was okay
paper two was >.< ttm
just... gone
gone gone gone gone gone

history on the other hand :D
redeeming factor!
hahahaha, feeling good about history
well, it's the only one I usually feel good about
so, fingers crossed
and hoping



yesterday for tawg I read Romans 8
and seriously, I felt it was such a wonderful mine of truths that we can apply
just that one chapter
but so much of it spoke to me
Romans 8:26-27
" 26 In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. 27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will."

WHICH REMINDS ME OF A SONG


He Knows My Name - done by Tommy Walker



I have a Maker
He formed my heart
Before even time began
My life was in his hands

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and He hears me when I call

I have a Father
He calls me His own
He'll never leave me
No matter where I go

He knows my name
He knows my every thought
He sees each tear that falls
and He hears me when I call



mmm :D
I love that I can make God smile :)
10:06 PM

gawn. @ Wednesday, May 06, 2009
alright, it's past 12
therefore it's less than 8 hours to my larts paper
I have three other tabs open
to mousehunt
facebook
and kongregate games

>.<

impending doom has never felt so...
GAWN.
12:18 AM

time management lvl - -3 @ Monday, May 04, 2009
so yea, weekend.
awesome.
shomg, I feel pretty stoned.
just finished:
4 hours of fuel+service
1 hour of lunch
3 hours of rehearsals (ICAN'TDANCE >.< God pls work miracle)
2 hours of napping
4 hours of history >.< (time management phail)
2 hours of tawg (most worth it)

shomg stoned
I'm going to make a list of people I shall talk more to once the exams are over
anders
esli
justin
aaron
nicholas
wei ren
reno ho
aik leng
tim goh
brandon
matthew wong
laura
christie
sophia
sheryl
benny
ariel mae
ariel tan
mel khor
joelle
xuexue
abbyyy
brenda
valna
allee
haruki
abel
nat
fang
teo
chet
cherray
deblin
anyoneelsewhopopsintomyhead
shomg, phone bill will blow.

I waste time best when I'm supposed to be doing work
>.<
OH SWINE FLU JOKES TIME
I've got flu, but it's the halal kind
DID YOU KNOW PIGS CAN FLY?
YOU KNOW, SWINE FLU! (FLEW)
eh, that's all I've got for tonight

shomg, counting on God.
1:57 AM

refuse to be denied @ Friday, May 01, 2009


I am Yours, You are mine
I refuse to be denied
All of You is my heart's cry
I refuse to be denied

I'm coming after You
I'm coming after You
I'm coming after You

Though I'm weak, though I'm dry
I refuse to be denied
All my life, a sacrifice
I refuse to be denied

I'm coming after You
I'm coming after You
I'm coming after You



Date of Commitment

I will give _myself_ as an outright donation
I will faithfully commit _____ per month for 12 months

please retain this portion for your reference

Though I'm weak, though I'm dry
I refuse to be denied
I'm coming after You.



& I love my God (:
1:21 AM

who, me?
Gideon
penguiknight/krantol
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."

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There's so much about life that I don't know about yet, and there's so much that God teaches me as I walk with Him everyday. This is where I record what I learn, my reflections on His revelations. My hope is that through the words you read, you hear His voice, not mine. And if it puts a smile on your face, that's an added bonus

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