Heh, it's been a pretty awesome weekend
I don't know how to put it, I just really love where I am right now
and it's that process of undulation, and I know I'm in my season of victory
of harvest
and everything's just going right
Heh
not that I don't face opposition, but that opposition comes not as the barrage but as the isolated obstacles

I love that we as a ministry are singing into our own season
and the song that's resonating in me right now is Unified in Praise
which is over at
http://www.trinity.net/ignyte/media/Unified%20In%20Praise.mp3

I love the heart of the song, the idea of a mighty army rising up to fulfill the call placed upon our lives
and it resonates so well.



God, this blog's supposed to be the documentation of all the different things God tells me
but honestly, this weekend there's just been so darned much this human leeeettle brain can't hold it all.



I'm excited for this friday.
Words cannot express.
Because something in my spirit tells me that it won't be just another worship experience
there's going to be something epic about it
e-p-i-c
like a mighty loosing of His spirit on His generation
I don't know what He wants to do with us, but I know
we won't walk away the same
You don't meet something that massive without your life being changed
that's just the truth of it, you can't run away from that.
an unlocking of the floodgates of heaven, something big
yesh, I'm really excited.



Never will You deny willing hands



I'm still learning
God reminds me that the world never sees us as enough
doesn't see us as enough to complete the burdens of being a good student
or a good son or daughter
sometimes we aren't enough for our friends
although we really really really want to be
and we're not enough to be that pillar of support for our families
we're not enough to be filial, or obedient, or good enough to hold our tongues instead of lashing out
I'm not enough
but He shows me that although the world will never see me as enough
He does
Although I'm not enough to fulfill all my obligations as a son, a brother, an SP, a friend, a student
I'm enough to be God's child
because it's not about doing more or being more spiritual or being more *wong wong* and holy and high and up there
as long as you're alive, you're God's child
and that means you're enough to be loved, held, empowered, known, and loved some more

it's a simple, ferocious love that crashes down etiquette and tears down walls of hurt and pain and heals and holds and knows and loves the same

I'm rambling

but that's love.



you there. Yes you.
I'm talking to you
I'm talking about you

you don't need to be more than His child
and He your Father.



thundering





(edit)
really soon after writing this, I came across this post on Stuff Christians Like, a blog I've been reading (and enjoying the different perspectives on things).
And there's something I wanna borrow from that post.

If you don't believe me when I say
God sees you as enough
I dare you to ask Him
that's right, right now
ask Him if He thinks you're enough
and I promise you that answer will be yes
and if you give him a little time out of your day and ask him to explain just how 'enough' you are to Him
then ready up for the amazing (:

So this is the song that's been speaking to me lately
it's called Glow from Hillsong's album Faith+Hope+Love
I like the spirit of the whole album. It's a very "let's go do some insane stuff for God's glory" album :)
which I think describes the season God's bringing me to. And where Ignyte's being called to. As one unified ministry.



Lost and stranded
Empyt handed
Broken down and all alone
Your mercy it entered into darkness
And enfolded us in love

We give You all we are
For the glory of Your Name
We give all we are
For Your praise

Just a glimmer of Your glory
And the earth falls to it's knees
You level the mountains
With a whisper
And You calm the raging sea

Let the earth come to life
In the light of heaven's glow
And the streets sound with joy
As the shackles lose their hold
You laid down Your life
For one and all
So we give all we are
To You alone

This means freedom for the captive
And good news for those in need
Your message is justice and compassion
God of love and Prince of Peace

With one voice we sing hallelujah
All the earth cry out hallelujah
With the angels sing hallelujah
Jesus Christ is King

We give everything
To You alone





So as God usually does, as I was standing at the back worshiping during the saturday service, He dropped a random thought into my head.
I think we've heard so much about how much God loves to love us. And it's a good thing! It's a fact that I think sometimes we forget or lose sight of.
But God brought a new revelation to that starting bit.
What about when we try to love God?
When we try to worship God, when we try to do something, anything, that brings glory to His Name, that shows Him we love Him.
Think about it.

When someone we love tries to do something to show they love us, we do our best to receive it.
You know what I mean.
For someone like me, my love language is words.
I analyse words, break them up, put them together, play with them in my head
words are fun for me
and that's why when it comes to expressions of love, letters mean alot to me
so I remember when someone I cared for wanted to pass me a letter after service
of course, I unknowingly sped off into my parents car quite quickly when we were dismissed, ignoring the person entirely.
But when the person messaged me about wanting to give me that letter, I begged, pleaded, beseech, and generally asked desperately for my parents to turn the entire vehicle around so that I could receive that gift of meaning and value.

Think about it in your own life.
When you start to worship and it feels like you can't connect, consider that your worship is a gift God wants to receive. And you can bet He'll clear the path so you can deliver that gift.
When you start to serve and it feels like you aren't doing a very good job today, consider that your service is a gift God desires to receive. And He'll help you give your best.
When you start praying and it feels like you're so easily distracted, consider that your prayers are something God yearns to hear. And He'll help you send your petitions.

In the same way God loves to love, He loves to receive your love in return. Because that's what perfect love does.

What about you?
What gift do you have to give God today that you need to be reminded that He loves to receive?



(and my sincerest apologies to the person in the example above :p)

so, I'm watching The Lion King.
And you know that part near the start, when they're singing the circle of life
and there's this bit where King Mufasa's standing on Pride Rock with the music blaring in the background
he looks super cool. It's a lion. Posing. That's pretty awesome.
But the next part, when Zazu approaches Mufasa and bows
there's just something about it
it just reminds me so much about the heart of God.
Zazu bows, with reverence and love
and Mufasa acknowledges it with a nod and a smile
and it's just so
God.

It's that expression that speaks equally of power and of love
and it's... well, pretty awesome.
heh.
#ILoveMyGod.

I actually think there are a whole bunch of things about The Lion King that I love
shall blog about them sometime

I wrote this while lying on my bed and half falling asleep

Clay

I am not made
of moonbeams and stas
of the red lives of mars
Asteroid beaten and comet scarred

I am not made
through earthly ways
And all my earthly days
Are merely my temporal phase

I am more than
the tattered and torn
the looked-down-upon
the shamed and the scorned

I am made
of dullest darkest grey
of molded and fashioned clay
more than just another cliche

I hold enough
of His Grace for my needs
His Freedom to be freed
His strength for His deeds

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.



It's been a while since I've written.
ENJOY.

Labels: poem

wow. my last post was last month on the 25th. Whoa. 20 days! WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING?

oh right. Facebook. Twitter. Anything else?
heh
10 days without my parents!
whooooo
heh.

I'm awfully out of things to blog about
I'm sorry!
but I'll be back :D
yea, just wait :3

-edit-

I just noticed that I've just started sorting my random thoughts.
Short snippets for twitter
medium length thoughts for facebook
and long strings of rants for my blog.

heh, I don't know what it is about the weekends.
I just feel... free-er
it's weird :p
the week has been tiring
and honestly, I haven't been winning the battles that I wish I did.
But you know what!
He is faithful when I'm faithless (:

there are always these moments when I doubt.
You know what I mean? when you question if this is God.
And, like Christian author Cecil Murphy talked about, sometimes it makes you wonder if there's something wrong
I mean, didn't Jesus say 'my sheep hear my voice'?
So why is it sometimes we're so unsure about it.

Cecil Murphy wrote about it, and he talks about how this line came to his wife while she was praying about it
'my sheep hear my voice; my lamb are still learning'.

I don't lie the idea of being called a lamb :(
being a sheep is bad enough, but a baby sheep sounds even more... small
weak?



You know how sometimes you hear a voice and it's that sort of 'I don't know if it's Him or not.'
And, yea, in those situations, who knowwws!
It might be, it might not.

But then there are moments
where the voice just speaks so clear
and you know, you just know
(no, I don't care if it sounds cliche, it's true)




heh, sometimes I wish my life was more interesting
and sometimes I ask God to do more with my life,
mostly because doing stuff for Him's always interesting
and most times I don't get an answer
a smile maybe, like a knowing smile

but sometimes, along with the smile
He tells me that He already is



I think it's funny when God sees me all puffed up on my belief in my own ability
in my own knowledge
in my own intelligence
then He changes that :3
with a few reminders I probably need :p





hahaha, shall stop for now
till later.

-double edit-

ALMOST forgot the verse I reminded myself to
Hebrews 10:14
The Message Translation
"It was a perfect sacrifice by a perfect person to perfect some very imperfect people. By that single offering, he did everything that needed to be done for everyone who takes part in the purifying process."