heh, so, there's alot in my mind I've got to get down before it disappears :D

today in the stills of worship, P. Andy said something that I remember writing here last month :)
that so often we go into worship with a deep, deep sense of longing for God
and that's good! That's awesome!
But so often we forget that God loves us so much more than we can ever love Him.
And for all that we want to love and give Him, He wants all the more to love us and touch us with His presence.

So often we feel like we're pressing in, we're pushing and pushing and pushing to reach the throneroom of God. Pushing against this wall of distractions, of worries, of troubles, of doubts, of shame, of our own thoughts. Pushing and pushing and trying so desperately to connect with His presence. And we forget.
However hard we're pushing to meet Him, He's pushing even harder to meet us.

And once again, He reminded me that He loves our love.
"I treasure it. I cherish it. More than silver or gold or precious stones. More than the rest of this world. I hold on to it. There is nothing, nothing in all creation that makes me smile bigger than your love. Not the beauty of sunsets and sunrises, not the graceful power of waterfalls or the distant sound of stars, nothing of that matters to me as much as your love does. More than diamonds or gold. I love your love."

It's amazing, and beautiful, and magnificent.

It's not a one-sided battle you're fighting here, even if it sometimes feels that way. You don't see it, but yes, He's there reaching out to you.

For all that you love, you are loved.
so much more than you know.