So if you're puzzled about what TAWG is, it's short for "Time Alone With God"
It's also a classic case of Christian jargon :p
Basically, it's quiet time, devotion, journaling, that time you spend away form the world and with God

It's hard to keep a balance between discipline in spending time with God and when it becomes routine religion.
Generally, there are three types of people, the ones that don't spend time with God, the ones that spend time with God irregularly, and the ones that do it every single day without fail.
If you're in the last group, then dear sir, I salute you. You're probably the sort who can keep a box of chocolates in the fridge without devouring them fifteen seconds after eating the first one.
And if you're in the second group, well, high-fives and side-hugs all around!

It's really paradoxical sometimes. The times when we're the most tired are supposed to be when we come to God right? But those are usually the moments where I feel like I'm too to spend time with God.
So that's where the discipline comes in. And honestly, I struggle with that sometimes. Twice this week already I've chosen sleep over God ( D: ). But I'm learning, I'm learning.

At the same time, I hate it when it becomes just another routine. I break open the christian playlist on my mp3, read a chapter, write whatever pops into my head, pray, and I'm outta there. I hate when it becomes a chore.

And there seems to be that middle point that's so often hard to reach :/

So what's the heart of spending time with God?
Heh, I'm gonna be honest here
Like I mentioned, I missed out on time with Him this week
and I was talking with Him about it (and feeling bad)
but in my thoughts, I caught what I was actually saying
sample this:
"I'm sorry Lord. My bad. Did I miss out on a massive revelation?"
"No"
"well, good. Sorry though. Did I miss out on an amazing, life-changing time in your presence?"
"No"
"whew. alright. Yea, sorry about it."

at this point God sort of looked at me and said
"Have you ever thought that maybe I don't want to plop anything on you, I just want some time with you"

And there's that *click* as it connects in my mind
I was wanting that time with Him because of what He could give for me, not what I could give to Him
And in reflection, that was pretty darn stupid of me.
The heart of spending time with God, of quiet time, is to shift your focus away from yourself, onto God.
It's that place of daily re-alignment back from what I want to what God wants.



On an unrelated note, I love God-bonks.
You know, when you're having wrong thinking (say with me, "WRONG THINKING")
and God comes over and bonks you over the head with a piece of truth
and you sort of stumble back, laugh, and go "ohhhhhhhhhhhh."
heh, those are fun.

This post is getting rambly :/
I'll come back and remix it some time.