Psalm 31:7

I like this picture (courtesy of cysr.tumblr)

Because this is what it feels like in this season
bahh, I hate exam stress
I hate it with a passion. It's not a feeling I like, not a feeling I'm used to
and I hate the vulnerability that comes with it.
The stress... sometimes you start making decisions, small steps to stupid
little mistakes, little compromises
and next thing you know you stumble again.

and He's struggling to remind me that He loves me nonetheless.
that His grace is a net that never breaks, that never gets packed away. It's always ready and available.

There's alot that goes through my mind. Mostly because exams kick my brain into overdrive and that means I don't shut off my thinking when I want to
I don't like it :/



but praising Him when you're feeling crap
there's something liberating about it
What you're declaring when you worship is the nature of God, the truths about the kind of God He is.
And as I sing, I find more and more the words are sung back to me
And I begin to hear and remember that indeed, His Name is a strong and mighty tower
A shelter like no other
Nothing, nothing else saves me from my fears, my iniquities, my stress; nothing saves me from it but His name.
It reminds me of the God I'm worshipping.

That's why I press in even when I feel crap



I mean there are different types of worship.
Know what I mean?
There are those moments where it's just an outpouring from heaven and your worship just feels so... natural
then there are times where there's just the quiet stillness of His presence. And all the worship you give Him emerges as a smile as He draws near
then there are times where you just don't feel it. Your heart's hard. You know He's there, but you don't feel it
that's crunch time.

I don't know about you, but it's not easy. I think that's kinda the point though.

Will you still worship if you don't get anything in return?
Because that, my friend, is selfless worship. Of the awesome variant.

best friend, is it weird to say I love how you're struggling with it? Because it means God means so darn freaking much to you that it matters if something is going to get in the way

p.s. xuexue, will reply email after exams. And you won't mind because we made it a rule and because you are a very nice person who understands :)