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I'm really tired from five in a row so please bear with me if it gets rambly. So yes, I've been really worried for you. The further and further you get from Him, the more it worries me. And when you doubt Him, you fight Him, I worry. Please find Him again. Please seek Him again. Please live in Him again. God misses you terribly.
(And that's done. I shall reveal the purpose tomorrow)