5.
Very often I genuinely wish I had all the answers for you. One thing I really really really want you to understand is that everything I say, it comes from an honest desire to see you breakthrough. Every time you say you desire for a breakthrough, please understand that I want that just as much as you do. When you say you want God to touch your life, I want that as much as you do. I really really really do. When you were telling me about your experiences over this year earlier this week, after you hung up I spent a few moments praying over you, because I want that breakthrough for you bro. And I know it's on it's way. I believe that to the core, to the bottom of my heart. Breakthrough is coming for you, and He will meet you. In time to come :) so don't give up on yourself. I've been there before, and 'ordinary' just isn't good enough. Living with God is extraordinary, amazing, astounding, words cannot express it enough because it's just words. I want you to know God as I do, and live life knowing Him that much and even more. That's real life.

(pillar or no pillar, I'm still your bro, yeh?)