So, MIT

There's so much.

There's honestly so very very very much to write about that I don't know where to begin.
It's been an insane three weeks. Really insane. I'm not used to having to wake up early so often. Just the whole atmosphere of fellowship with friends, and knowing that I'm doing ministry and impacting the nations, doing the things God called us to in The Great Commission? That touches my heart. That affirms me.

If you've asked me about the trip then you've probably heard this already, but here it is again anyway.

I was and still am genuinely surprised by how filled I feel. We went with an honest and genuine desire to give and give and give, to minister to the best of our abilities or our availabilities. We went in desiring to be poured out. And poured out we were. Every day we were stretched a little, put on the spot a little, having to be on high alert and in constant prayer. It was really different. We were on high alert, and wary of every thought in our heads and every word we said. It's really different. I mean, coming home, the past day has been so different. I find myself aching for that same sense of Spirit around me. Having it all around you for so long, you get used to it. And not having that strong sense of Him near makes me hunger for it.

Every day we poured out, but every day we were filled. As I posted just before I left (number 14.), the math of the Kingdom of Heaven is funny. When we give in the right heart and the right spirit, we receive so much. Oh it's so hard to express into words because english is a language of logic and the whole idea of this defies the concept of human logic. But as far as I can say, I have never gained so much by giving. It blows my mind. I don't understand it. I don't. But I feel filled, even though I've been emptying myself. So very strange.

And of course, there is so much we've learnt from the thai people. So much that it's hard to describe. But that fire and that passion is a heartbeat I'm still carrying. Seeing the way God moved, it was amazing. The testimonies of His Love and Faithfulness astound me.

It's not enough though.

I still don't feel that that's enough.

And that is why I've already set my expectations for camp. I mean sure, it would be wonderful if God could tell me which subject combination to take in year 5, or where to go after year 6, or how to get the prayer group firmly going, but that isn't my main expectation.

My main expectation is to give. That God would let me give. That I could bless my youth ministry, that they would receive from God and grow. That God would use me to pray for others. That's my main expectation. I'm going into this camp not to receive, but to give. And if He desires to give, then thank Him for that.



One lesson I've learnt from the past three weeks is this: when it comes to street e, don't make such a spiritual thing about it. I mean yes, it is a spiritual thing, and one should be prayed up and ready and sensitive to the voice of the Holy Spirit throughout. But if you're so restricted inside this only between me and God thing that it inhibits you from reaching out, then there's a problem. During the many different street e times, I would ask God "who do you want me to talk to?" And He'd answer "anybody, it doesn't matter. Whoever you talk to, my Spirit will guide you. Just throw yourself out there, let me use you."

Once again, please use discretion when listening to the stuff I'm writing here. There is truth in what I said, but don't rely on what I say, it's full of holes anyway. Listen to what God says.





Ah MIT team, how I miss you guys.
You don't spend every waking moment of 8 days with the same 17 people and don't form some sort of bond.
The van randomness, fruit salads, acapella singing, praying together, laughing together, eating together, I honestly hope never to forget it. It really felt like we were a team, watching each others back, keeping each other in prayer and on alert. It felt good. I miss you guys man.



ah yes, but greater things are yet to come
greater things are still to be done in this city.
I believe that.





Oh yes, and if you're reading this, please pray for me. I've been having alot of trouble sleeping ever since I've gotten back from MIT. Not difficulty falling asleep, just that my dreams have been... disturbing. Just a short prayer would be nice :) thanks friends!