I get more and more tired :( upon certain reflection earlier this week, I suddenly realise that with each passing year there seem to be more and more work for me to do :p because with each year I find myself thinking 'I'm busier than I've ever been', and each time it still holds true. I think I'm being stretched? But I enjoy it :) days like these when TrailBlazers (my most awesome cell, SHOUTOUT YO) remind me that we're all in this together :) makes me happy. It's worth it, it's always worth it :)

BUT THAT'S BESIDES THAT POINT. I always forget what I get here to do :p

YES, the point I wanted to talk about today :)

I guess one of the burdens on my heart is always about my friends :) it's a part of who I am I guess? A good friend of mine mentioned in the last month about how God's given me a big heart, and I think that's very true :) because there are nights where I feel so consumed with His love I wonder how my heart manages to fit inside me. It's this sort of outward pushing, like there's something inside that wants to get out. that's what His love feels like to me.

And my friends are a part of that :) and so there are loads of times where I hear my friends asking me if they're bothering me when they need to talk about their worries or their problems. The obvious answer is, well, obvious. Of course. But it's a kind of bother I enjoy :)

Working to do cell plans as an SP, it's important, sure. Having my time to play Final Fantasy Dissidia on the PSP is a good break, fine. But this much I have learnt: that lives are more than worth it. Spending time to check up on friends and making sure they're coping, that's worth it. Taking that extra fifteen minutes during Time Alone to pray for my friends, that's worth it. Talking to somebody when they need a listening ear, that's worth it. Friendship is worth it. It is.

I remember a night a few weeks back. It was after dinner, and I was going about my usual post-school routine, kicking back for a few hours surfing the net and chatting with friends. Your typical orange glow suddenly flashed in at the bottom of the screen, one of my close friends was in an urgent situation; my friend needed help.

I wonder what people think happens in these sort of situations. Does a voice from Heaven suddenly speak 'Gideon, go talk to your friend now'? Is there some kind of clear telling to go be a friend?

But no, this wasn't one of those times where God says that there's an added element to it. This was one of those times where there's choice (I hope people get what I mean). There are conversations God specifically tells me to start, sort of an internal knowing that this person needs to hear something. And there are conversations where there isn't that clear distinction or demarkation to go talk to the person.

The strange thing is that this incident was a third category. Instead of telling me to go for it, or remaining silent, God asked me if I could take it. On top of needing my rest that night, needing to finish up some emails online, He asked if I could cope with it.

I knew the answer. There was no internal deliberation, no 'hmmm, but then...', no contradicting voices. Just a 'yeah, I think my friend needs this'. And with that I typed out that 'you can call if you need'.

Because when I thought about it, and I thought about the times when God specifically asked me to talk to friends and the times where He didn't, 99% of the time, that distinction didn't make much of a difference.



mmm, that's it for the night

NO EMBARRASSING PHOTO :p