So hello friends!

It has been a long, long time since I last posted on here and I do think it deserves an explanation.

I named it the Z2 effect.

It describes the crucial transition between secondary school life into JC/poly life (it's kinda in between secondary and tertiary, does that make it like, second-and-a-half-ary?). Some how, in the years before I've noticed some kind of change that happens to people when they go through that important year. For some reason, people seem to begin to change, harden, numb. Please note though, I'm not saying that the effect is due to the change in schools or seasons. What I'm saying is that this change in schools and seasons becomes the catalyst for greater change in relationships, in lifestyle that shakes and tests foundations from before.

And so I have to confess something of great importance:

I have not been okay.

Truth be told, I've been bleeding terrible.



Listen, I'm not going to blame it entirely on the change in school. But I think somewhere along the line I had begun to lose track of who God was and what God was doing! And that's pretty darn important!

As a result, I started neglecting this blog. You must understand the creative process that goes behind these posts first. Usually what happens is that in my daily living, I often come across thoughts about Christianity or about being a Christian that I note down. Then when I have some free time and I go back and reflect on these thoughts and pull and dig deeper into it, that's where the writing begins. It's from there that these posts are (I would say crafted but honestly, they do lack a certain smoothness about them) written.

In the past few months I've been letting my focus drift. And here's the thing, we tend to think about the things we focus upon. If you're chasing after a certain someone, you're gonna unconsciously think about that person. If you're starving and you begin to focus on your next meal, you're gonna start thinking about sinking your teeth into a Carl's Juniors thickburger. So when I let my focus drift away from God, I started thinking less about Him, about life with Him. And that led to less things and areas to think deeper about, and less posts. That and the fact that I also had less time to write.

But I want to change that. Bro Kah Fei's sermon as well as the prayers of quite a few leaders lately has been reminding me of this gift. Of wisdom, of thinking, of writing. And I thank God that His gifts and call are irrevocable (Romans 11:29)! Because that means that I can pick it right back up again.

So I told God that I desire to focus back on Him again, and that I want to give more of my time, avail more of my time to write, and to bless others with what He has blessed me with.

I know my God answers prayers. Expect to see more posts on here :)

(AND YES, I did read the comments on the tag board. I will blog about them. Long time coming, but they will be up sooner or later :) )